Okay sweetie...read your journal ... left a reply. Good luck. Bad feelings only hurt you...let her go with love.

I read through it( the journal). You aren't going to like what I have to say, but somehow I feel moved to say it. I don't disagree with having her move out.

Jeez, you want support so you won't feel guilty. I can't support that, this is just me ok? If I feel guilty about something, it is usually becase I am coming sideways at an issue and acting on a whim, instead of thinking through what really needs to be done.

I agree, I think its a bad situation for you, and I think you did your best to help. But in this, if you can, find a way to help her even on her way out. then no one can ever say you didn't do your best. After that it is all on her. This make any sense?

You have given so much of yourself already.
She is beyon the grasp of what you can do.have a confidence ,that you did all you could.

Time to remove the toxins from your life.
You took on this task,knowing it might not work.You gave it your best....time to let go

Good luck sweetie

She is too toxic for your home right now. Maybe help her find a half-way house to mend.

Best wishes to you and your family. I have been there. In years past, I felt the need to rescue people and then find myself in too deep. Found out that I was trying so hard to not look at my own problems that I had to take on other people's issues. Not saying you did that. But, it just reminded me of my past shit.
I did read your journal entry, but not sure about all the particulars. Not that it matters, but I think what you are doing is best. I feel sad for her daughter, but maybe she should go into foster care? What a sad state of affairs.
Good for you for looking out for yourself and family. We can only help those who try to help themselves! And, she obviously did not!
Take care of yourself. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

I had to ask my brother and his pregnant wife (only a couple of months along) because they were toxic to my family. Anything that causes you pain in your home needs to go. If I can let my bp brother and his alcoholic self harming(cutter) wife go for my mental health I know you can find the strengh to do whats best for you r family and please please dont feel guilty.

Wow, thanks Buggy. BPD girl is a cutter, hospitalized for it twice and once for attempted suicide. Now she is pregnant and I feel responsible for her AND the baby.

SickofLife, I feel guilty because it is my job to feel guilty. It is my burden to take on everyone elses feelings, responsibilites and problems. NOT! That is what I was taught as a child, but it was, is and always will be WRONG.

I hear ya on the going off half cocked part. I feel guilty when I overreact or react to soon. This is different. It's as though I agreed to be someone's friend, and as a friend I agreed to watch their baby. Now, they won't tell me where they are or when they are going to get back. I can't go anywhere or do anything because I have this baby and noone else wants the responsibility so I am stuck. Ergo, the guilt of letting go of a "baby".

(Oh, wait a minute! I have that problem for real! I need a root canal and can't have it done because I have her freaking baby!!! All the time.)

I am sooooo done with this situation. If she would just come out of hiding long enough for me to let her go....I could get on with my life.

Thanks for you input. It really helps.

J