Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Dear all. I am writing this as a pre-emptive strike on a situation that i feel is about to get out of hand, i am sure.
This message is a warning to all here on D/S, of the dangers of getting too involved with another person. As we all know being BI-PO or suffering depression and anxiety, can be a lonely place to be. It is very very easy for any of us to reach into a fantasy land, a place where the sun shines everyday and all in all the world is a better place.
Well i fell into such a place not long ago. I fell into the world of Halterbroke. It was a very pleasant world to begin with, and sure enough, the word Love sprung up, and talks of plans were discussed. Then a while after i found myself chatting close to another, here on D/S. We also got on very well and had some very nice chats. Now this is where the danger lies, not being well and in need of attention, i found myself involved in two situations,but i like everybody and i do not wish to hurt or upset no-one either, and i carried on chatting to both people.
Not thinking straight is a big part of this illness, and i never thought straight. Then all of a sudden, one knew about the other and i was deemed a cheating bastard. But how can i be, i have never been with or slept with anybody here. The thing here is only one person got upset, Halter. I did not blame her, and i had apologised and tried to explain what had happened and that the situation was getting out of hand.
But i recieved a few not so pleasent messages. And am being threatend, being told that a message i sent would be posted on here for a week for all to read, it is with this threat that i had decided to post this.
Not to get at anybody, but just to point out the danger that getting too involved on here can lead to some un-happy times. As you all must know, its not always easy to have a proper conversation on the net, you cannot easily relay emotions, or give somebody that special support that they may need.
I have 90 ppl on my friends list, i talk to as many as i can, i would never intentionaly upset any of you here. I am being persicuted for a stupid stupid situation that came about so easily due to the ill health that we all suffer, and like i said before, you have to be carefull. I have apologised to Halter, and do so again now for the fantasy land we found ourselves in. I know a lot of you will read this and either think,
Who care's
So what,
You are a bastard.
To all i have spoken too on here should know, i am a good guy, not a bad one, i just as most people do, made a mental mistake. And to those involved i apologise sincerly.
As i say before i only wrote this as i was told about a message. If the message comes up, so be it, but i have not and will not run away from being human, an unwell one, but still a person who's health caused an injustice.
Thank you for reading.
This message is a warning to all here on D/S, of the dangers of getting too involved with another person. As we all know being BI-PO or suffering depression and anxiety, can be a lonely place to be. It is very very easy for any of us to reach into a fantasy land, a place where the sun shines everyday and all in all the world is a better place.
Well i fell into such a place not long ago. I fell into the world of Halterbroke. It was a very pleasant world to begin with, and sure enough, the word Love sprung up, and talks of plans were discussed. Then a while after i found myself chatting close to another, here on D/S. We also got on very well and had some very nice chats. Now this is where the danger lies, not being well and in need of attention, i found myself involved in two situations,but i like everybody and i do not wish to hurt or upset no-one either, and i carried on chatting to both people.
Not thinking straight is a big part of this illness, and i never thought straight. Then all of a sudden, one knew about the other and i was deemed a cheating bastard. But how can i be, i have never been with or slept with anybody here. The thing here is only one person got upset, Halter. I did not blame her, and i had apologised and tried to explain what had happened and that the situation was getting out of hand.
But i recieved a few not so pleasent messages. And am being threatend, being told that a message i sent would be posted on here for a week for all to read, it is with this threat that i had decided to post this.
Not to get at anybody, but just to point out the danger that getting too involved on here can lead to some un-happy times. As you all must know, its not always easy to have a proper conversation on the net, you cannot easily relay emotions, or give somebody that special support that they may need.
I have 90 ppl on my friends list, i talk to as many as i can, i would never intentionaly upset any of you here. I am being persicuted for a stupid stupid situation that came about so easily due to the ill health that we all suffer, and like i said before, you have to be carefull. I have apologised to Halter, and do so again now for the fantasy land we found ourselves in. I know a lot of you will read this and either think,
Who care's
So what,
You are a bastard.
To all i have spoken too on here should know, i am a good guy, not a bad one, i just as most people do, made a mental mistake. And to those involved i apologise sincerly.
As i say before i only wrote this as i was told about a message. If the message comes up, so be it, but i have not and will not run away from being human, an unwell one, but still a person who's health caused an injustice.
Thank you for reading.
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Some crazy person is telling people on this website that I killed myself. I am, in fact, doing quite well, in case anyone knows me from before and was worried.Xoxo Halter
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
GROW THE FUCK UP and keep your personal trash personal.
It is not an easy decision to decide to bear your soul, personal life and the essence of who you are at any stage in life...
i wish you luck and I hope that you can avoid a situation of this sort again..
Wayne, I BEGGED you to leave me alone. I ASKED YOU NICELY to leave me alone. I HAVE BEEN ASKING YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE AND YOU WON'T.
Everyone loves a partee, right? Everyone LOVES other people's Dirt. Well, Poor Wayne, Poor, Poor, Innocent Little Kryptonite, who is apparently Faultless and Did Absolutely NOTHING Wrong to Anybody DID do a whole lot wrong and Honestly if this makes ME the bad person NOW, I DON'T CARE ANYMORE BECAUSE I AM SICK OF HIS BULL. He's gonna tell you I made it up, I edited it, whatever.
You guys know me, and Yup, I pulled a stupid. I fell for it. In the interest of saving other people from Falling For the Bull, HERE YOU GO:Ok, when i came to D/S i had no intention of getting involved with anybody, but things happened. Tara we became close and before i knew it it seemed there was a lot going on between us, a lot in common etc, Michelle the same goes for you. I suddenly found myself in a situation, 2 ppl that said they had feelings for me and saying they loved me, and yes i told you both i loved you. But when you are on the net, what can love mean? I cannot know how much you mean it and nor can u from my side. I have felt unloved for so long, so suddenly 2 people falling for me was, well unexpected. You both reached out and i tried to grab. Ok it was very very wrong of me, as it seems that i am trying to lead on 2 people but please that is not the case. I am not an optimist, i would never in a million years think that i would ever meet either of you. And things got so out of hand, it was doing my head in. Thats why i wanted to leave. Coming back as somebody else, well i wanted to see what was happening i guess. I am honestly a loving caring person and i do care about others, thats why i did not want to scare either of you away, because i was being selfish and i wanted to keep both of you happy. I am so so so so so sorry that this has happened, in a way its a relief cos you will both now tell me to go fuck myself and i guess we will never chat again. With the kind of illness that we have we do crazy shit, i am not using that as an excuse, but you know how our minds alter, and we crave love and support. Now i did not have to write this to both of you together, i could of just sighned off and never come back. But i know i have to face up to the situation. Tara i am sorry and i do have feelings for you, Michelle i am sorry and i have feelings for you, what can i do? i doubt i can make up for this. I am only human, as i know you are, i really really did not mean to hurt or upset anybody, i do feel terrible i really do, i am a prick. Again i can only say sorry to you both.
Ok so if you want nothing more to do with me i will fully understand, i await your replys, as i say i am not running away from this, i am accepting full responsability.
I wont say i love you to both of you as you wont believe that, don't blame you. Just again i am sorry that this happened. Maybe you can forgive me and i will be on my way. x
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AND WAYNE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
OH YEAH, AND HE DID COME BACK UNDER ANOTHER AVATAR! I FORGOT THAT PART!