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WTH is wrong with me today (potentially R-rated)

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I don't think I like this side of myself very much... I am hostile, angry, verbal, horny (well, that's not bad) but all over the board today, and don't give a rats ass what I say or do... what in the hell is wrong with me??? I'm serious here... I can't even begin to describe how awful I am today... while funny in some ways, I think I should be shot, drawn and quartered and locked in a deep dark cell to rot until I can behave like a decent woman should.... and I have to sit here, in my corner looking out at at the sky, keep my mouth shut, and just "be good" because there's nothing else I can do and keep my job, spouse, house, truck, motorcycle.... and now we're not supposed to be swearing so guess that's out too.............
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Candy, I hear ya...I've been this same way for the past few days. I think its an epidemic, LOL! No really, if we hang in there, we are bound to feel better hopefully soon enough! I'm here if ya want to talk! Love, Jess
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candy honey? How are your meds working for you? I have seen a weekly cycle on you for three weeks. You continue to break thru and shoot up into some pretty intense mania. Do you drink coffee? When are you going to see your doc again?
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Simply put, it sonds to me like you need to have sex to get rid of all of that stuff that is built up inside of you. JMO
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otter.... have I told you lately that I love you? I am so flipped out about all of this. I'm scared because I just don't know what to do, or how to control this stuff. and it seems like the harder and harder I try to control it, the worse it gets... the seroquel isn't doing jack shit for me... and I called the psych and asked her about the restless legs thing and she told me to take a benadryl tonight with the seroquel... at this point, I'm going to drink until I look like foreal, and then take the benadryl and then a seroquel and so help me god if I'm still laying awake at midnight I'm going to get up and cut my legs off and hang the damn things by a tree...
this ISN'T me, I'm NOT like this... I have episodes where I"m like this, but they always go away after a couple of days...
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and I'm so stinking cold that I am shivering at my desk depsite having a space heater pointed at me running...

will you just please shoot me right now so I can stop being like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Candy, Seriously woman. You get too high too often and taking benadryl isnt a long term treatment. I know how you feel. I get so that I want to get away from myself, out of my skin. I have to talk myself off the ledge (I'm single) and then I take alot of sleep aide and maybe go to sleep for a few hours, then I feel like death warmed over. But the mania is hot and angry and fast and strong and bold and I cant control my mouth and I swear like a truck driver and it hurts, it really really hurts.
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