Okay, I'm wondering something that's been eating at me for a long time. Ever since I got out of the hospital after being there a month for taking pills, I've been doing MUCH better and resuming all the activities of my normal life, even getting back to the point where I was orginally diagnosed with depression at 17; I'm almost 25 and was dx'd as bipolar in '03. These meds (Zoloft and Lamictal) are helping me immensely and I'm even losing weight but the thing that I worry about is my possible tendency to go manic, which happens when things are going really well and I start to take on more and more, which leads me to decompensate. Like I said, I'm doing well and feeling great and full of energy and getting 7 hours of sleep a nite, but I have noticed that I'm barely getting by money-wise each month b/c I see things that I want and buy them without really NEEDING them and I feel guilty...like today was the 9th avenue food festival and I took out $40 from the ATM and spent about $30, which included food from the festival and a late-nite diner run with some friends. I don't think that I'm really manic, but I just have problems with budgeting. I don't get suicidal anymore and I'm wondering if it's just poor judgement or maybe I'm being too hard on myself?? Please help! Thanx. ~mel
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