Man what a night. I spent most of the night trying to convince myself maybe i should try to g to sleep. But to no avail the thoughts just kept coming. I think i might have squeezed in a couple of hours some were last night. My bed in its self has become some what of a torture device almost like im fine if im wide awake but if i try to go to sleep i get real uncomfortable and some times panicky. My dreams haunt my days. and i can't seem to focus on every day life because the thoughts still won't leave my head. The meds they put me on for sleep just make me feel like someone turned of the light and then turned them back on leaving me in a very Black and White world so i chose not to take them I feel they just make things harder. After all my bipolar already makes me think things are going to be back and white. I wish just for once i could have peace and i could fall asleep normally. I just wanted to so thank you to the people on here to i don't know you all but it really helps to know im not in it alone . I send my peace and love to all in need and hope everything is well. By Close_2_Insanity73
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