Hi there. New user, first time posting.
I was diagnosed with bipolar back in June. I took Depakote for 5 months and ended up only gaining some weight and getting tremors. I've quit all medication for a few months and feel like it might be better for me to get treatment, but I'm really skeptical of doctors' ability to help me.
I feel constantly overwhelmed by psychological suffering even though I am aware of all that I have to be grateful for in life. I was able to leave a rough place in one city to move home with my parents. I have a job that helps pay for school while I go part-time. I have a car. I'm fit and still young. I have lots to be happy about.
Yet I feel like shit. Constantly. My regrets hurt so much. I've made so many mistakes and truly hurt people, so I don't feel like I have the right to hurt. I want to get over myself, but I'm unable to. I need to, though, if I want to stay alive. If I can't take responsibility for myself, my pain will become someone else's. I'm not handling this properly. I would like any advice from others who suffer with this impairment.
bleh. I had to use my bosses Apple today. haha. I have been a Windows person my whole life. Macs frustrate me. I never understand why people think they are more simple. Different key combinations etc. Annoying. I have to do complex work already, and my speed was hampered by my bosses funky touch pad (instead of a normal mouse). Then he got his Apple mouse working....also not a standard mouse....
Sorry I haven't been on DS lately. I fell and broke my right shoulder. Waiting for the last week to see the orthopedic surgeon for my MRI results. I'm right-handed, so I've been trying not to use my shoulder as much as I can. I'll let you know the results, some time after tomorrow. In the meantime, I've been off work for going on almost 2 weeks (I'm on disability, but count on my part-time job...