Hi there. New user, first time posting.
I was diagnosed with bipolar back in June. I took Depakote for 5 months and ended up only gaining some weight and getting tremors. I've quit all medication for a few months and feel like it might be better for me to get treatment, but I'm really skeptical of doctors' ability to help me.
I feel constantly overwhelmed by psychological suffering even though I am aware of all that I have to be grateful for in life. I was able to leave a rough place in one city to move home with my parents. I have a job that helps pay for school while I go part-time. I have a car. I'm fit and still young. I have lots to be happy about.
Yet I feel like shit. Constantly. My regrets hurt so much. I've made so many mistakes and truly hurt people, so I don't feel like I have the right to hurt. I want to get over myself, but I'm unable to. I need to, though, if I want to stay alive. If I can't take responsibility for myself, my pain will become someone else's. I'm not handling this properly. I would like any advice from others who suffer with this impairment.
Accidentally saw an event on Facebook while looking for weekend dance events. The woman I believe may have been an accessory to my assault is having two engagement dance parties. For herself. (Won’t say he’s older, kind of her boss, and, when I was there, just knew he was a new dad. Okay, I can judge her a little.) And some of my dance friends were interested.i can’t really go around...
i've been crying myself to sleep for the past week and i'm having panic attacks