I am on so many meds and have never felt worse. I had to switch from seroquel to risperdal because medicare doesn't cover seroquel. Last night I didn't sleep at all. I feel physically ill like I have the flu. I am utterly and hopelessly depressed even though I just started wellbutrin several weeks ago. It worked great for 3 days. I don't want to tell my pdoc that because she will want to up the dosage and it already tears up my stomach. I take 6 different meds and feel suicidal sometimes. I want to take a med vacation. Shitcan all of them and start at a baseline. I feel overmedicated and shitty. I would only go off my meds with my pdoc's approval. I just don't know what else to do. All these meds and I still want to die? I'm just so tired of pills. They just chase each other around counter acting one another. The risperdal is making me feel stoned. I don't enjoy that feeling. I want to experience my life not shuffle thru it feeling this way.
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