im sorry suze... before i sat down here i ran through my list of all the things i need to do to feel better... im doing them, but its bad chemistry and stress... i wish i could help xxx

DONT DIE I NEED YOU HOW ARE WE GOING TO CONQUER WORLD IF PEOPLE LIKE YOU DIE JEEZ TAKE CARE

It's your house, you can sleep anywhere you like.

Accept yourself as you are; where you are.

This too shall pass.

Tell your daughter you will be over it soon and that you appreciate her patience, in the meantime.

Pretend you are a Queen and that you can choose to sleep all you want. Pretend you live a life of luxury.

Accept yourself as you are.

"All is well."

And whoever is pressuring you - tell them to just get off your back. Tell them, "Lay off. I am processing my life right now. thanks for the support."

Suz...are you talking to your husband about these posts you are making.I'm feeling worried ,that you are not telling him how you feel.Remember,you said you don't want to go through what you did last time....tell hubby...and get to your Pdoc ASAP...PLEASE!!
Hugs
dd

I know how that feels I really do, but we have to continue on, even if it doesn't seem worth it

Suze... I have been where you are now... My daughter is 8. I had to sit with her and try to make her understand why mommy can't play right now...or whatever... thats hard... I want to run away all the time but my kids need me... you kids need you... the storm will rage but hang in there... keep going to the DR. I hate going but know i must... someday the light will shine on you.. it will... All I can say is take baby steps...thats the only thing that gets me through some days... and know that there are people who understand and care... I do...

gosh suze, nothin i can say is gonna make things better for you. everyone here is behind you and supporting you. at least you are surrounded by people who understand and love you very much. just stay here and talk you know we're listening...patty xx

I agree with what dd said, please go see your doctor and tell him/her this, and make your husband aware if he isn't already, I don't want you to die, lots of people don't want you to die, you need to get through this, if only so I can keep seeing your fabulous avatars and thinking of you every time I read a boob joke!
Lots love and cherish you sweetheart, when I get very bad, my hubby tells me to live for him, even if it is crap, even if I yell or cry or walk around like a zombie, he says if I love him, I should live for him. I've done it, and it sucks at the time, then I start to feel better and I feel so proud that I did it, I got through and I feel great that I did it for him.
Please just keep swimming and talking. You can only go forwards.

yeah, reach out to your doctor, suze.

You are still hurting from earlier, at least you went to a Hospital/doctor/??. I can't stay in an emotion long enough to get help, all I have to do is wait and then something new happens.

Enough about me. Don't give up, just keep going no matter what. I usually sit in my chair afraid to move staring at the TV. I hate life that way but I don't have a fucking choice.

Practice some of the Primal Scream as you see fit! Do it in front of your kids friends, I am sure that would be easy to live down.

Please don't give up right before thr miracle. We care about you. I'm sorry that you are in such pain.

Don't know if it's any consolation, but you do have company here. I've had my days of numbness, of not feeling what i think i ought to feel. I couldn't even cry when i wanted to.

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this, and it must be difficult being a mom. You must try not to feel like you're being a 'bad mom'. After all, if you were resting on the sofa with a physical illness, would anybody think you were being a bad mom?

Hope this phase passes for you sooner than soon, as i always say. And as others are saying, do see yr pdoc as soon as you can. Maybe your meds just need adjusting.... Take care of yrself.

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