Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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alright... my turn bitches...
I want to help everyone else be happy....
then I get to be miserable. How is this fair? Damn man, I just don't get the bullshit. It should be if I help someone else I get to fell good, not always that way, sometimes I feel like shit for no apparent reason. Man this world is fucked up. I don't mean to hurt people, but I do anyway. God life sucks, it is no wonder I try to stay fucked up. I don't wanna deal with it.... man you guys have been great, but I might chill for a bit..... you know curl up in the corner, lose the job fuck my life up again until I can't stand it then start over. See what I mean? that is so stupid but it is how I feel.
I want to help everyone else be happy....
then I get to be miserable. How is this fair? Damn man, I just don't get the bullshit. It should be if I help someone else I get to fell good, not always that way, sometimes I feel like shit for no apparent reason. Man this world is fucked up. I don't mean to hurt people, but I do anyway. God life sucks, it is no wonder I try to stay fucked up. I don't wanna deal with it.... man you guys have been great, but I might chill for a bit..... you know curl up in the corner, lose the job fuck my life up again until I can't stand it then start over. See what I mean? that is so stupid but it is how I feel.
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I've done that route... and there ends up being so much accumulation of regret. If there's anything you can do to hang on... and not fuck it up for yourself... pls. try to hang on. You deserve to care for yourself.
And thanks for saying how you feel, which i don't usually do myself.
We all get that sickof. It's just a matter of riding it out or getting meds adjusted.
You want to fuck up your life again? Why? To prove to yourself you're not worth it, or can't handle it? It might be a self fulfilling prophecy. If you hate yourself you'll do anything to prove yourself right, like screwing up on purpose.
You do help a lot of people; you prob. don't realize your worth here. Stop and think about it. You're a necessary part of D.S. When you start to believe it you'll start to feel it too.
I just hope yr ok.
You are saying how you feel.
Betcha felt worse too.
All the best of strength.
It sucks and sucks.
It's like endless pus from yr head seeping out.
I can't seem to hold a job for very long and if I keep job hopping I'm pretty sure I'll ruin my chances at getting hired anywhere. I get bored or just have such bad anxiety that I can't go anymore...then I get the depression and want to isolate like you do.
My 3 younger kids live with ther dad and I miss them everyday... my oldest lives with me and I've put him thru so many moves and my crummy relationships (mine) that he had to endure so I feel bad about that. My relationships for the most part have been riddled with abuse and fighting..why/how do I keep marrying or dating the same type of guy (except for #2...he was the "boy scout" but guess what? I got bored!! I hate this bipolar disorder sometimes!! I make stupid decisions because of it, when it's controlling me ....then when the smoke clears and I see what a mess I've made I get soooo depressed!
Sorry, didn't mean to be so long..I am thinking about you and hoping you feel better soon...we are here for you :)
You a wroth battling this out for/with.
We ALL want to help you. You are a great person just because you are here. You know it could be worse!!!!
I will send you a hug, I know they don't help much but at least you know we want to help!!!
-B
I stopped drinking because it's a depressant and I was sick of feeling shitty. Some say BP gets worse with age but to tell you the truth it has gotten better for me with lots of effort on my part. Life is not easy for anyone Beeper or not. Feelings are just feelings...don't give them too much power.
You're not alone. You get effected by what's going on in other's lives. You're compassionate to a fault at times. You reach out and help so many people to the point where you might neglect your own feelings. What you need is a good dose of boundaries. Knowing your own limits and simply remembering your own needs. When you're tired rest. When you're feeling abused just stop the communication.
I really enjoy reading your comments and I hope you know that you have a lot of friends here. We're not all needy joy suckers.
Have a good rest and please don't give up by going off to isolate. Start off with a nice sleep and a good breakfast. Take a shower and put on some fresh clothes. You'll feel so much more alive. Trust me. Hugs,
Sharon
Posting a few lines doesn't mean much..but I truly wish that you find some peace soon bud.