well, for me, the impact on those left behind...also going out on such a low note is pretty lousy.

This may offend some, I'm sorry if it does... You do the best as possible especially if people are dependent upon you. I learned a valuable lesson lately.

Because there is only ONE SHOT - and if we do it and decide that was a dumb idea and we don't like it so well, TOUGH - there ain't NO comin' back.

I NEVER think suicide is Truly an option. I think about it, but just end up crawling into a hole, for awhile.

That's not enough to help you; I know that. But I don't like the thought, 2souls, because chances are we are ALL important to someone. Even when we don't know it.

And If we go, and trigger someone else to go, someone Else also loses. You know?

The human spirit is a powerful force. May the force be with us. Bipolar blows!

yeah, it blows all right.

Well, although you shouldn't, you can at any time choose to give up and die. Hopefully you won't do that, however, because I'm sure you must have people in your life who care about you and who you love as well. When you can't live for yourself, live for those who love you and would be devastated if you were to take your life. A mother, for instance, never recovers from a suicide.

My recent attempt was done as if I was on autopilot, somewhat aware, but determined in my action. Haven't processed it yet. I set out to die.

I know, I don't want anybody to suffer the way I do, but sometimes I think it is selfish of them to expect me to go on, they just don't know.
In my last manic state I started a book, trying to answer the question of WHY. The why really tortures and haunts those left behind. I hope I never try again, but jjust in case. maybe it could help, a little?

family we leave behind would suffer more than we ever did when alive. the thought of tomorrow being a new and possibly a good one always stays with me

There is only one person in my life that I stay here for. Before I was "rescued" a year and a half ago I had no plan. I had the pills...I had a gun. I had no options. I can honestly say that at this point she is the only reason why I am here. We all need a reason to live. I don't think that myself will ever be important enough. Just the way it is for me.

can another person know the degree of suffering of another?
I think it is pretty horrible to spend a lifetime, at least a good portion of it wanting to die?

meant fo colella, moo

I think if my sister had known the effect her suicide would have, she would not have done it. I would give anything to have her back. But no, I do not say she had no right.

I guess we have to define "right". Our perspective is important when we contemplate what our right is in choosing to die. If we believe that our life belongs to us then we can technically say we have the right to choose. However, I believe my life was given to me by God and my life belongs to God. Therefore, I do not believe I have the "right" to choose to take my own life. In illness our perception is distorted and mine has been several times in the past. I hold on to many reasons that my decision to take my own life would not be a good one. My family, their devastation by my decision, is one of the the most important. Hugs

My uncle (who was bipolar) killed himself and it was awful to those he left behind. I can't say it was the best choice, but I understand why he did it.