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Why is this soo hard to understand?

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Well, yesterday was just that, a bad day...ending with a bad night...I was at work until 10pm last night and then came home to wind down and started chatting with people from here and some other online friends that I have made. Yes, for the most part, the people I talk to are women. My wife doesn't seem to understand that I am just talking to people in general because I need someone to talk to. Instead she intends to dictate who I talk to. It may be because they are mostly women but still, I find it easier for myself to talk to women. I see myself getting 2 different things from my talks, 1 being talking to people that understand what I deal with everyday unlike my wife and 2 being just another outlet and support group. Correct me if I am wrong, but it is not good for someone to try to dictate who and who you can't be friends with? I could understand if these women that I am talking to were all local to me and I drove to their house or met for coffee but these people are from other parts of the country...strictly online friends. And yes, for those of you who will play devil's advocate, I have put myself in her shoes and thought about it if the roles were flipped, actually, the roles were flipped before and all I said was you are going to put yourself in a position that you won't like, and the guy she was talking to was my ex-bestfriend and lived right down the street from us. And what do you know, something happened...what did I do? Nothing because I already made my statement about it. Am I just wrong? I don't think so...I am just so angry and down right now...I can't handle myself right now...My wife has family to talk to about anything, I have nothing, I am an only child and so the only things I have are the friends that I have. I am soooo mad that I just feel like crying right now...but I can't, I am having to trudge through work...again, here is another thing that when things were looking on the up and up, brings me right back down! I am fucking tired of this shit...I want out!
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If you dont take cair of yourself you will not have anything to give your wife. yes there is a differance between your exbestfriend and online suport. do you get to talk to a tharpist at all. I am going to see one tomorrow first time to help me deal with my hubby and his actions and how they afect my life I am all ready on to meds just to cope. I am sorr you are having problems. you do need to learn how to talk to your wife though, But that dosent mean you can not have online suport.
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On line support is fine, but you need to have balance also. I spend way too much time here, but I also live alone. If I were married or living with my boyfriend, I would definately be finding "other" things to do. Don't lose your marriage to the computer.
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YA KNOW THER WAS A TALK SHOW THAT LOOKED AT THIS. THEY DECIDED ( HOST AND AUDIENCE) THAT IT WAS A BAD THING WHEN TALKING WAS SEXUAL, INVITING AND THE ONLY COMMUNICATION HE HAD. THAT WIFE WAS NOT BEING COMMUNICATED WITH AT ALL HE WAS ALWAYS ON THE INTERNET.
ON THE OTHER HAND ANOTHER ONE WAS JUST WHAT YOU ARE TAKLKING ABOUT. THE WIFE WANTED NOTHING TO DO WITH THE SITUATION ANYMORE. IN THAT CASE THE WIFE WAS SHOT DOWN BECAUSE SHE WANTED IT BOTH WAYS. NO PAIENCE OR UNDERSTANDING OF HIM.AND HIS ILLNESS. END OF SHOW
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Well, I am not online all the time. I only do this when she is asleep and I am winding down or feel really down and/or lonely.
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Have you shown her some of the communication so she understands it's not sexual or romantic and that it is strictly online support? Maybe that would ease her mind. It seems it's her insecurities that are showing - as probably would be mine.
shen
shen
Don't bale on your marriage over a little thing.
I posted on your journal too.
GOod luck
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I agree with cougar, It really is about insecurities. She needs to be reasured that this is just support. Perhaps suggest she set up an account too. Won't be the first time that husband/wife have both been on here. Helps both of them out.

Good luck, Mary:)
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That is the thing...she used to sit down with me at night and read my posts and what people wrote back to me. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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There's a certain word called "trust" which seems to be lacking in the relationship. Maybe it's something you could work out in couple's counselling or if it's gone to far and she won't go get yourself a therapist who can give you tools to deal with it.
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my opinion is she should trust in you.i probably am not the right person to be giving advice as i am going through a divorce right now,however you need support and if you aren't receiving it from your wife you should seek it somewhere else.myself i feel more comfortable talking to a man than a women.i don't really have any friends besides the ones i make here so i can relate somewhat.maybe you should ask her why she doesn't participate in your online friendships anymore.GOODLUCK!!
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I totally understand your frustration. Been there done that. Advice is that you tell your wife that you would rather talk with her, but it is too difficult to explain to a person that is not in your shoes. But if she would go to counseling with you then you would not feel so alone and have the need to talk to strangers. I know, so why am I on line typing? Just to remind myself that I am not alone, that there are others out there that can relate and some are worse off than I am. You last line worries me "I want out!" - depending on what you mean by that here is what I have to say - nothing nor no-one in this world is so important and better than I am that they are worth taking my own life. think about it. What the hell is so great about these other people. They are the ones that think they are all that, but does everyone else think so? Probably not. They have issues just like the rest of the world....
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I understand where u are coming from, im kinda in the same position myself. One thing i would do, is sit her down infront of it...allow her to exlore and see what it is your doing. This whole issue is hard to understand to begin with, so just show her or let her explore on her own.....hope she see's the good in this site and what it does not only for you but for the BOTH of you, good luck
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my husband dont want me talking to men, i do it thru the post and sometimes thru the message system. i think it was innocent stuff but to keep harmony at home i dont put them on friends list or hug them.
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