when i am depresseed, i am so lost in that moment, i cant remember what it feels like to be capable and function, or even be happy. i cant BELIEVE that the moment will pass. its like i believe thats all i am, what i think and feel in THAT MOMENT. i am cut off from the memory of good or normal times...likewise with mania or hypomania...i forget all the depression...i blow all that off and rationalize or explain it away...i am only who i am in that MOMENT...cut off from my memory...like theres a huge physical disconnect in my brain....this is what keeps me unbalanced...the disconnection from one self to the other...feels like 2 people instead of 1....anyone else experience this?
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