My mind keeps racing even when I am sleepy

sometimes even my mind is shut down and since I started my atavan my heart isnt racing... I literally fight going to sleep... and once I am asleep I really fight getting up... I seriously dont get it

I guess I do have lots of thoughts in my head most the time but tonight I felt like a complete vegitable and I litterally refused to turn off the tv and go to sleep... I practically had an arguement with my self. Sad/funny thing is I took the extra half of my sleepy med to knock me out... and it did make me super tired but I refuse... I so dont get it

I do the same thing Buggy. I have gotten better, but I still slip and do it. I have no idea why, I just dont want to stop. Sleepppppppppp honey, it is good for us, as I sit here answering your post and fighting sleep myself. LOL Hugs

I do the same thing, Buggy. For me, it's usually because I think, the quicker I go to sleep, the sooner I'll have to face a new day.

ya I supposse. Ill go put the carrots away and lay in bed. I wont start the next show and I will try for sleep. I guess I will really have to talk to my councilor about it. I tried in the past and she gave me the hole journal take a bath read something boring speal bbut freankly none of that works when I truely am fighting it in my head. I mean its not like stuff is keeping me up... I am literally fighting my self in my head having a conversatins with my self about how I dont want to sleep, yet I took my extra sleeping pills its like two sides of me... but I dont have split personalities (or at least I dont think I do lol)

thats the other really twisted side to it.... once I do go to sleep I do everything in my power to fight waking up. I will sleep to all hours of the day and get insane hours of sleep... upwards to 15 or 16 hours at times.... so Its not that I fear the new day... I mean who fights sleep when they can sleep only to fight it waking up? if I didnt want to sleep in the first place why would I fight to sleep longer? Maybe I like life at nite? m,aybe I like who I am late at nite. Maybe I feel 'normal' at nite as no one is rejecting me... they cant they are sleeping.... ugh who knows

Not sure I do this too

My eyes are so heavy and tired but I don't want to settle into bed. It helps when I go to bed and keep the TV on at a low volume.

You are curious about what might happen. Myy big pdoc said that aboutt mewhen I told him I wanted to kill myself but couldnt. You are too curiuos.

Please explain that more auntfester, is it that the person wants to see the outcome??

Sometimes I'm afraid I might not wake up so I'm scared to sleep.

Set yourself up with a bedtime routine and stick with it. You know like we do for our kids. It might work. Give yourself permission to go to sleep. I have to do that sometimes myself.

I am wondering the same thing as I sit here with my eyes all heavy but my mind is in overdrive FUCK!!!

Big Ditto here! I will sit here on the computer and will fall asleep for a few minutes wake back up and keep on fighting. I have to make myself go to sleep (using seroquel of course). I NEVER want to get up in the morning! Go figure!