I am in a down time in my life, not only am i bi polar, but also bpd and that sucks,(oh yeah also an alcoholic) I am in a new way of life, i am happy, I am trying not to run from a great relationship, I feel like i don't have a voice and that only he can get mad. I am stuck , i am trying to get a job again, I am living with someone again and i am used to be on my own. I love my life, I am just stuck and i want to just go away from everyone, I am trying to be the best I can. I feel like I am being controlled and that my opinions don't matter. People say to you can do it , you have done so well with everything and i just feel like i am not going to get out of this down time, I am so scared that i am going to lose everything, I am dealing with a man that is autism/aspergers and he is so selfish and i am trying to help him and i can not fix him. I know i love him very much and he is my life and i just want this relationship to work and i want to build something good with him.(I am so scared) I hate failure, I am a perfectionist about everything.
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