Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
NO I DON'T WANT TO DIE!!!!! I just hate existing for the sake of existing even when I have something to do...
I am on the downward spiral that is for sure. I was like I am so high I need to come down then down I came and I thought this is good Then I hit the low now I am just there.
Its not to the point of just sleeping the days away I am almost wishing it were that way again as at least I would not just be sitting here as I really don't have the enegy to move beyond my bed.
I don't even restart movies I was listing to the DVD repeating the splash screen for an hour before I had the energy to change it to play too tired/bored to even switch it from one movie to another...
EXISTING is just so boring.
But I was in that kind of mind set for 5 years.It took 4 years of constant meds changes ,to finally find something that is working for me.
Remember bipolar is a biochemical imbalance.Your brain is incapable of "seeing " the good things in your life.There is that barrior....it's a hard concept to absorb...your brain does not have access to the rational side.The side of your brain,that will remind you ,you have friends and family that love you,and that there is hope.
Hang in there.8 weeks ago,I was ready to say F all...and just give it all up.
Then my Pdoc Rx Depakote for me.
Within dys ,I was seeing life the way I used to be.I felt happy for the first time in 5 years.
I don't know how long this will last...but today,I'm glad I rode it out
Good luck to you
You are among MANY who have wished life would just END. Hope and perseverance and open mindedness are critical factors for a happy life. www.healthrecovery.com
I just started on 2 amino acids are feel so much better. Hang in their and look for the sunshine and joy with your son.
I had that for a while.
Looking back ( I do a LOT of that ! ) I reckon I should have voiced my concerns more.There are many ways to do that.You have DS and you also should tell your professional helper about yr moods in detail.
Once I began to tell my psych the details, I found that they moved into a different gear of trying to ascertain how best to improve the level of care.
All the best.
I saw it through to a point...but I should have shouted them for help sooner.
I just can't remember being happy for long ever, I always seem to be waiting for the other shoe to drop