Sometimes that's a hard question to answer.
We all feel like this sometimes.
You just have to remember you won't feel like this forever, that's the joy (ha) of bipolar.
We all wonder 'why bother' sometimes.

i live for the little things. my life is pretty horrid right now but i take pleasure in a joke i hear, a tv show i like, or an unseasonably warm fall day. i know it is hard, but in the worst of times i always manage to get thru and get to the brighter side and feel better.
my prayers and thoughts are with you!

For the reason of speaking to us .. for speaking and perhaps helping someone else who is suffering. To find reason to love yourself and want to be here with us.

I feel exactly the same way, have lost everything I owned and live with my mother now for 4 years. Family is sick of dealing with me. I do not have cancer, but I have no health insurance and cannot pay for any. I feel like what is the point. I am bipolar 2 (extreme depression 7-serious suicide attempts)very few manic episodes, but the depression is constant and unbearable most of the time with short interludes of rationality. I wish I could help you. You can send hugs or chat, but my message system is not working. Great!
Sorry that this is at point it is. But you have a fellow friend. Take care.

At 58 people generally have a lot of life experiance what ever it is. If you can learn from it maybe you can make a differance in some one elses life. I recently decided to take on helping a fellow BP sufferer that is only 13. I cant solve her problems but I can help her learn she isnt alone and that its ok to ask for help. I can help her find the coping skills I wish some one would have showed me. I know that taking on the task of helping some one else is a lot but I kinda feel like if I can make a differance in her life then all my pain and suffering isnt for nothing.

Maybe you can find a way to give your self meaning and reason for your suffering... embracing your disorder and thinking in the way that you suffer from this in order to understand and help those younger then you and incapable of understanding how to dig a way out.

You know tyoing that I see where it would be hard to provide optimisum to some one when you have none... but you can help guide them in the direction to get help from the people that CAN give them help and hope. I know tht if I had help at her age maybe I could have avoided all that I suffered until I was diagnosed... at least now Im aware.

I've said it before and I'll say it again. Good things come in small doses. You should live to start over and make a better life for yourself. Master yourself. It's hard I know but it's defintely possible. When you do, you'll see that there is a reason to live. I just can't tell you what it really is, cause I'm not privvy to that information.

I'm 58. I get health insurance because I'm low income. I'm getting aches and pains and I'm tired. But I'm not giving up. To be alive means to live, to do the best we can because we don't know the end. We don't cross the street on a red light, do we? (not if you want to stay alive in Albuquerque!) We don't drive the wrong way on the interstate, do we?
Why not? Because we're not stupid, because we want to see what comes next. So sure, let's do what we can to help out our BP. If we develop a cancer, let's give it a good go. Every day we live is a gift and it would be a shame to turn down any gift.

Yes, sometimes it's hard. There are moods, feelings
and unhappy realities. That's part of life, for BPs and non-BPs. We can't enjoy the good without the bad, can we? But we don't need to focus on the bad, we know it's not going anywhere.

tomorrow - I was diagnosed w/cancer 3 years ago. You've got to fight it. Because things get good again. They do.
And w/Bipolar you still have good days & good weeks & good months. With cancer you have none of that. You're dead.
FIGHT IT FOR ALL IT'S WORTH.
We'll deal w/the BP symptoms together.

I have nothing as well. I've lost all my relationships, my money, my career, etc. But, I still go on...I understand from other BPers that it can and will get better. Believe in them because you can't believe in yourself right at the moment. We care about you. peace, t

I live a day at a time and try and find something wonderful in each day - even if it is only birdsong.
Don't give up. You can fight both the cancer and BP. Who knows what good days you might miss if you don't. Take good care of you and try to stay strong x

I hear your frustration. I am a sink hole myself. But I know it will past. BP is like that.
I have everything to fight for and yet I feel my energy is gone.

It is the easier way, to buckle under but in case you're contmplating suicide here's a point I will share with you; my friend I met in hospital years ago hit a trough and just decided it was all too hard. A feeling we can all agree on I'm sure. Anyway, he bought a gun, drank some dutch courage and shot his face off. He didn't die and now has the most horrible recovery ahead of him despite his feeling low, down, blue whatever. The staff don't allow him to sit and stew over all the if only's. So that's what stays my hand when I am low and remember him. If our time isn't up, it isn't up and we will only end up with even more trauma to try cope with.
Hang in there ok. Luv, AnneH

I am almost inclined to agree, but, man I love to laugh, and I love funny things and I love to think that someday they will have something that can make us right. I love to go to the beach, I love those rare days when things make sense. I love to cry at a ridiculous chick flick, I love rib eyes and playing poker. I love the people that have turned away, and I love the thought that one day they might be able to see why I was such a nut job. I can't quit because I love...

I think life is like riding a horse... ya get bucked off a few times... but, you ALWAYS get right back on, otherwise, you'll be afraid to ride.
Don't cry over spilt milk, it'll get you nowhere. Ya might as well piss into the wind, while you're at it.
I lost everything I owned, not once, not twice, but 3 times! I just picked up the pieces and started all over again.
I would suggest that you do the same. Just pick up the pieces and carry on.
Even if you just have an ounce of strength in your body... I'd use it to fight the cancer and take your meds for your BP. You're placed on this earth for a purpose... and I don't think you've served yours. If you feel yourself sinking into the depths of hell... POST and we'll help. I think the majority of us have started all over again, at one time or another!
Take care.
Keith

I hear your pain but maybe you are at a point in your life to grow spiritually. I know that I have had a lot of bad things happen to me (not to make comparisons with you of course, I have never had cancer thank God) but I believed that I suffered for a reason and it was God's way of showing me a path to greater salvation and deeper spirituality. I will pray that you find your own way out of your troubles. God bless you.