I am having one of those days (been 8 of them now) where everything i try to accomplish....(clean the kitchen, fold laundry and put it away, dust, vacume, cook, eat, ect.....)are major tasks that take 10-12 hours to finish if i finish then at all. I look around and even the small tasks look like the grand canon of things to do. Am i the only BP person that lives like this? My house is a wreck, there is a MOUNTIAN of laundry, waiting for me, and every room needs to be cleaned but i get up look at it and sit back down. Why i wonder cant i just do it? I get physically sick, or will try to start and end up crying and back in bed or my computer chair looking out the window. Why are regular tasks so hard? Normal people dont have these problems. I take a lot of crap from my family.....not my husband he has learned to cope with the mess, but i feel like crap and cant fix it. Am i the only one?
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