Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I have a multilayered dx.... I find I post and only half of me is understood. I have problems with things and I post and I feel like only half of me is understood. Lately I have been a bit more absent from the boards with my own posts as I just dont know who to talk to any more.
This board moves fast which for me is a good thing as I need to talk when the issues arise... and I know there are duel dxed people here who understand... but I am only lucky if they happen to catch my post on a very fast moving board. When I post to the other boards that are fitting to my issues as well I find they totally miss it because the bp over powers everything.
As my meds stabailize more my bp is coming undercontrol so much more and the other problems my ocd, ptsd, anxiety, but mostly my bpd really are standing out. I feel out of place everywhere I go.
Today is the first day in 5 days I have had alone and I feel like all of the week is drowning me. But who do I talk to that can understand the many different waves that are hitting me? Im alone and have few friends... well 2 to be precise and one is not much of a friend. And then there is my family but they are part of my problems.
Some one PLEASE tell me what to do throw me a life line or something I am truely drowning. I feel like I am shutting down.
This board moves fast which for me is a good thing as I need to talk when the issues arise... and I know there are duel dxed people here who understand... but I am only lucky if they happen to catch my post on a very fast moving board. When I post to the other boards that are fitting to my issues as well I find they totally miss it because the bp over powers everything.
As my meds stabailize more my bp is coming undercontrol so much more and the other problems my ocd, ptsd, anxiety, but mostly my bpd really are standing out. I feel out of place everywhere I go.
Today is the first day in 5 days I have had alone and I feel like all of the week is drowning me. But who do I talk to that can understand the many different waves that are hitting me? Im alone and have few friends... well 2 to be precise and one is not much of a friend. And then there is my family but they are part of my problems.
Some one PLEASE tell me what to do throw me a life line or something I am truely drowning. I feel like I am shutting down.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
You are not alone WE have been there and I am kinda in limbo with an emptiness inside my being that I just can't fill.
Just hold on you will get through it.
I know how you feel.LOL.I feel overwhelmed often and don't feel like I correctly make my points and effectively relay what i am trying to say.Sometimes I get all hopped up and everything just comes pouring out at once and jumbled and most normal ppl just look at me like what is she on.LOL.It is frustrating.Come on here as much as you need to we all understand that kinda thing.:)
BPD is a bitch. The emotional upheaval on a daily basis. The decreased stress threshold. The push and pull of our relationships. Internalizing of emotion.
Meds are of limited help with BPD. Ativan helps me in a pinch. It at least alleviates the physical symptoms of anxiety as needed. Cognitive behavioral therapy is of limited success. Because even knowing your triggers is defeated by the suddeness of symptoms. I am trying to get information on dialectal behavioral therapy. See a therapist on the 3rd.
The best thing to do is recognize that there are ups and downs and they dont last forever. Recognition of symptoms and triggers may not prevent an onset of symptoms. But it may help alleviate self recrimination
I woke today talked with a friend that has been mia from a medical problem had lunch and reality of whats going on in my life hit. My finances are an absolute mess and I dont know how they got that way. I dont even think I can pay rent because I have to pay the other bills and rent goes up this month by a 150$ and I dont know where that money is going to come from. I shouldnt be sending my daughter to school but I just cant handle having her home 24/7. My Bp has slowed down drastically from sever rapid cycleing to a few weeks. I had nearly 2 weeks were I was on an average wave some up some down and then today BAM Im down... GOD is this what BP is??? How can I live life like that??? can I please go back to the daily crap??? oh wait that sucked to...
Im opening cans of wormns in counciling and I just want to check out now. I am seeing all the harm I probally did to my son as a bpd mom and I fear the harm I maybe doing to my daughter as a bpd mom of a 3 year old. Im told it will all be ok.... WHEN will it all be ok???? Im sick of the bandages.... I dont want to do this any more
The hard part is to fight your way through the low and reign yourself in on the high. Rent is the most important. As long as there is a roof over your heads the rest can be worked out. My BPD has not thoroughly disrupted my childs life. They are more resiliant than we give them credit for. Just as you are not giving credit to yourself. It is like waging a war. You may lose a battle here and there but it is the ultimate outcome that matters.
You love your children and are doing your very best.
Your meds may need adjusting. It will not always be like this.
In the meantime, pray, meditate or take deep breaths, whatever else you can do to get centered and calmed. Being around people all the time as you have been can be very draining and upsetting.
Your meds need adjusting, that is all.
Do what you need to do right now that is not harming and would make you feel better. Can you think of anything?
The best thing I have found to help with my BPD and crap is talking. That is what this community is for. Talking everything out is the brains way of rationalizing bad circumstances.
Just keep talking.
I have often wondered what these multiple diagnoses must feel like.
I think yr great.
Please remember it can still strengthen you because you can re-visit the places and say " Well, I got out before, I can do it again "