I'm 31y.o. and have been diagnosed with bipolar mood disorder and ADHD. I have been doing well for a long time on my meds with a mild up and down swing. Right now I feel like I got hit by the emotional bus. I feel overwhelmed and I am afraid to trust my feelings. It caused lots of trouble in the past. I almost walked away from my marriage and kids because I couldn't handle my life. I wanted to start over. After I destroyed my wife's heart by saying things that I believed were true at the time.... things that I shouldnt have let her know. How my family really felt about her. It only reinforced my feelings. After a while I changed my perspective on us. I think she may have made an effort to make me happy and persuaded me to get more help and give things a harder try. We have been married for 4 years now and I had a similar episode a few months before the marriage. I wanted to post pone everything so I can clear my head and think of this rationally rather than emotionally. She was concerned about the money we already spent and how was our families going to react. So I was just gonna call it quits, but the guilt was killing me and I didnt trust my feelings because I knew everything gets distorted when I have an episode. So here I am, full circle again. I am having the same issues, but this time I am overwhelmed and afraid it will get worse and cause me to make an irrational decision. This sucks....feeling certain emotions that may not be true at all. I need someone to help me figure out how I really feel.
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