I've had this dx for 2 years now and before that was dxed with depression, anxiety, and ptsd. It seems that I'm always waiting to feel better or for the meds/counseling to kick in. I just want to give up. It seems that this is just the way I am...permanently depressed, irratable, angry, miserable. I honestly feel like there is no way out, I can tell my therapist but she can't do much but tell me to wait or refer me to the hospital. I feel like I can't do anything about it anymore, the meds aren't doing any good and my depression is getting worse. I don't want to talk to my husband because there is nothing he can do, when I'm thinking of suicide or hurting myself there is nothing I can do except for telling someone and ending up hospitalized which would cause my husband to lose his job, our only source of income. We wouldn't be able to pay the bills and would end up homeless. I swore to myself that I would die before causing my family any more pain. I just don't know where to turn anymore. Thanks for listening.
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