I feel like Im having drug seeking behavior in my mind. I havent actually physically done it but I wish for the drug induced mental emptiness so that I dont have to deal with pain today. Is that so bad???? I dont normally drug seek or at least I dont think I do but Im done dealing with pain yet the pain is there... so drugs seem to be my only hope... and by drugs I speak of medication. I HURT!!!!! I cant do what I want to do.... Im slipping to depression...... thank god my counciling apt is tomorrow... do I share these drug seeking thoughts with her???
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