Ok, I have been seeing my physician for over a year now, initially because of heightened agitation and depression. He has placed me on many different meds, such as prozac, lexapro, depakote, and currently paxil as i had to stop taking depakote because I'm pregnant. I haven't yet had an exact diagnosis of bipolar, he just thought that I may be and decided to treat me as though I am. Well, the past week or week and a half has been absolutely unbearable. I've never hated my life or myself or my situation so much as I have this past week (etc etc...) I just feel so angry and hyped up and I've had thoughts of suicide, I just finally got so worried that I called the mental health place and scheduled an appointment (they call it an intake) and they also scheduled a med appointment. I guess my problem is that I know I should have done this a long time ago. They cant get me in until the 14th or 15th. I've just been absolutely terrified of what happens when I finally seek therapy or any of that. Can anyone relate? Tell me what to expect from these appointments.....Please tell me they wont lock me up and throw away the key.....*nervous chuckle*
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