Here goes my friggin' mood again! All morning, I was pretty much okay and now I am starting to go down. I don't get it. I ate lunch and I'm sitting here doing my work and it's like a rain cloud just came over me. Darkness in my head and heart. I can actually feel it. WTF? I am so sick of this! I can't even get angry, I suddenly don't have it in me. Mon. I kept thinking everything was pointless and I should just end it already, Tue. I was a little better and then I went to my therapist and I was okay. Now I am slowly starting to fall down again. I don't want this anymore. WTF?
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