Hey it's me again. Still fighting and still trying. REALLY trying. Today I made it to work. To the PARKING LOT where I cried like a stupid baby for 20 mins and left. This is a new job and I have only worked for a week so it's not looking real good. I have thyroid issues on top of BP so blamed them and when I called my boss and said I couldn't make it AGAIN she was extremely understanding. The thing is, I am not wanting to kill myself anymore and I actually have some hope I can survive. I can actually carry on conversations with my friends and family. But when it comes to going out and doing anything I am scared and embarrassed and seriously can't do it. Everyone is at my precious little girl's soccer game (which I usually love and cheer and act silly with my friends and fam) and I couldn't go. Can't go out to dinner either. ANd WORK!? THat is worst of all. WTH is this about? Have any of you ever felt this??
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