I am so sorry you are feeling so bad.You just have to keep on keeping on til things turn for the better.They will it just takes time.I know how alone you can feel sometimes and it is unbearable but you just have to find that tiny bit of strength and hope inside somewhere and hold unto it.Stay on here and share that should help a little then you are not totally alone.:)

I was once told that once you feel totally beaten and spirit is broken then you can start being put together again.

I can tell you I have been there just hang on tight, it does get better......Pray ask god to give you the strength and he will help you. Thats what I do. Watch him work his miracles.

Were here for you Patty ..your not alone. Put your little dancin chicky avatar back up ..that will make you feel better :) Stay strong girl !

I usually whine on here for a while, maybe call my pdoc and leave a message. Then I call the emergency hotline number.

Then I whine to my wife, until she is running out of the house screaming bloody murder.

I stare at my weak bbguns and I wonder if I could choke to death on BB's?

Then I nap, that usually helps if not then I eat, and eat, and eat.

process the grief, give things time.

honestly, what i do is say, ok God, it's in your hands from here... i can do no more.

I cry.... then say a prayer that things will get better soon. Doing it more lately.

I have a huge cry, then get really angry, break some stuff, punch the shit out of a chaff bag, fall in a heap, cry some more in the foetal position.

Get up wipe away my tears and dust myself off then attempt to drag myself into doing something to fix the crap i am in.

i did something last night i hadn't done in years. i cut myself. i know i'm headed for a bad place. i've not been this way in a very, very long time.

Babe, you need to call your pdoc as soon as possible. Get you some additional help. I know that we all love you here and only want what is best for you. That is you being on the road to being happy.

Patty, I am so sorry you are feeling so badly. I know it feels like you are alone, but you are not. We are all here for you and we undersatand. When I am at that place where I cant bear another moment of sadness, I remember and think of the times I have loved and felt good. I close my eyes and envision a place that I love to be. I ask God for strength. I ask Him to just hold me. I am praying for you now Patty, that the feeling will be lifted even if just a little. That you would feel the love of Gods warm, comforting arms around you. Luv and hugs

this place is all i have. no one in real life knows how bad i really feel except my pdoc and therapist. this is all i have.

Patty, honey, reach out to others that love you. It is so difficult to suffer this alone. We are here for you but you need the support of those around you that love you too. Hugs

i don't want the people i care about to worry about me. the few times i've tried to reach out the person i was talkin to got so upset i ended up comforting her. they have enough to worry about without me adding to their list.