I'm getting so depressed because I need to be around people more, but I seem to push them away (or is it me?) even though I try to be nice to everyone, I'm blaming it on me. I'm home alone all day - even the neighbors are gone all day. I've applied for jobs, to no avail, but because I haven't worked in 15 yrs. my qualifications are limited. I was an Adm. Sec. and a lab. technician for a large national co. for many yrs., but after having had ECT many times, I don't seem remember as well as I did before. Therefore, I'm hesitate to apply for many jobs, even menial ones - such as retail. I've done volunteer work at almost a dozen places, and am tired of that. I just need to get out of this house during the day. What am I to do?. Also, most of my family has turned their backs on me and I have no idea why. My husband says they're jealous of me for a number of reasons, but they're all I've got. What am I to do? I don't need the money - just PEOPLE, to feel important. I'm so lonely.
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