it makes a lot of sense, and sounds like you are depressed. Are you taking any meds right now?

nope

Yeah, life sucks Angie! But, us old-timers accept it and try to live one day at a time. It's like... at the end of a day... we say to ourselves..."Wow! I fucking did it!" Another day down... Days turn into months, months into years! Ya just gotta survive, that's all!
Take comfort in your friends and find peace in the simple things of life. You feel your life turn around!
Huggers!
Keith

Hey girl!! what happened to the party girl from the other night??
Why are you not on meds??
You need to call your pdoc and get on something ok? It will make you feel better!! then we can have another party and I will get the kids in bed early and stay up late ;) lol
Comon you know that is not good You need to take care of yourself. It stinks to feel that way so I hope you have a peaceful night
ANgie

yeah but i mean MT its boring.. its like we sit here and say wow one day down.. like like ok 10000 more to go... whats the point in living like that.. whats the point of life? is what im just not getting..

i dont know.. angie/. a lot of times im the life of the party where ever i go and sometimes iget like this where i just dont get anything..

You might need to take some medication to help you get your mind and body going, if you can't do it yourself.

Some things you can do to help you get yourself going if you can do it yourself:


Here is a list of some things that I have posted before. The difficulty in using these techniques as opposed to medication, is that you have to use a certain amount of dicipline for them to be effective, and if you are deeply depressed, that can be difficult.
It is worth a try, though. Certainly better to find somthing relatively inexpensive and healthy if you can. But don't be afraid to use meds if you need them.

COUNTERACTING DEPRESSION

* Take a cold bath/shower every AM - or a cold splash of water on your face can pick you up.

* Work, school, or planned routine, as usual(don't let yourself slide)

* 1/2 hour every day of aerobic exercise (stuff that gets your heart pumping)

* rousing music (upbeat, happy no blues or sad songs)

* incense or aromatherapy

* whole food/balanced diet (no preservatives, colors, etc.

* "looking and seeing" 5 min/day (purposefully observing surroundings - preferably positive things)

COPING WITH STRESS

* tighten and relax body (& concentrate on something pleasant 1/2 hr/day) [there is a name for this method I can't recall, but specifically, you are supposed to lay down in a comfortable, quiet place, and start with your
toes, tense and relax, then point your feet forward, tense and relax, etc., working your way up your entire body one muscle group at a time, and taking in a deep breath and blowing it out slowly in between each muscle group.]

* List stresses and worries, and figure out (constructive) objectives to deal with them
* At least 15" of sunshine/exercise a day helps make seretonin but do it early in the day - too close to bedtime, and it will keep you more awake.

POSITIVE THOUGHT

* write down three thoughts that regularly occur during depression, preferably ones that come in the earliest phases. - recognize these thoughts (and other signs, ie: headaches, frustration, confusion, etc.,) as symptoms of an episode of the same degree as any other physical problem (it is typical to minimize symtoms of depression, or not recognize them for what they are.)

THEN,
* retrain negative thought patterns two ways:
- recognize negative thoughts as symptoms of a depressive phase, a nuicance illness which (in itself) cannot do any real harm,(unless it is ignored)
- affirmations - repeat several times a day - saying scripture, positive (counteractive) true words,that turn around your negtive feelings.

these suggestions are from the book "Overcoming Depression"

These are some of my suggestions as well:

* Recognizing it is only a feeling and not something I must do like eat when I feel hungry, and that for the moment I feel really bad, but knowing it will pass.

* Thinking of anything other than suicide, about the future, like what I still need to get done today, or tomorrow, etc. helps too. Your brain has a tough time contemplating ending it and planning for the future at the same time. Kind of like your brain trying to sense hot and cold at the same time. That is why having goals and a schedule (that is not overwhelming) are helpful tools to keep depression at bay.

* Just going for a walk and getting in a different environment if you can could suprise you how fast it can change your mood. Especially in the winter, when depression often hits hardest, as the shock of cold works a little like ECT and can snap you out of a funk. So can a cool shower.

For me at least, I prefer to at least try or add these methods with meds, because I would rather do these things than take meds if I can, and if you add these things (that work for you) to a drug regimen, you are likely to need a lower dose. The difficult part is, it takes discipline (not a four-letter word, but for me it should be)and consistency for them to be effective. And you have to remember to do them.

St. Johns Wort worked well for me for a couple of years. It is a good herbal supplement for mild to moderate depression, and does not have many side effects. It has been widely used and accepted in Europe for many years. As with all medications, if you start getting a rash, or wheezy, even after taking it for a while, stop immediately. You will not get any severe symptoms like seizures from discontinuing it suddenly, although it is better to taper it off if you can.

SamE is also used, but I dont know much about it. You should be able to get info on the web, though. Be sure you are getting nonbiased information, though, and not info from manufacturers or sellers of the product alone.

I have felt that way my WHOLE fucking life. I just got diagnosed 3 weeks ago and I am so dam happy that it is somthing that I can point to and say yup that is it ITS NOT ME. I have my kids and I am young and I need to just get better. There IS no choice when you are a mom. Get your ass on something to help you be you!!! that is my tough love
now here is a HUG!!! it will get better. hang in there you have to you have no choice, BUT you need to get help with it. Its not the flu girl!!! Its so hard when you are depressed I feel what you are saying I really do. its so hard..but it will get better you just need that push to help you start.
xoxo

Angie! My love! YES! It IS pointless! BUT! You gotta show up anyway, do the work, take the meds. You sound like you're cycling, need a nice mood stabilizer. BIG HUGE HUGS. Winter, spring, summer, fall, manic, depressed, manic, depressed. Yep, yep, it allllll comes back around. BUT! The children grow, the flowers bloom, the rain falls, it's all a little bit different even if it is still the same. You gotta look at the small things.

Spiders build webs every night and tear them down each morning. Can you imagine it????

i get what u guys r all saying... but i just dont get life... what is life.. why r we here??? i kow i sound fucked in the head... but... im just so bord with it all... i just wish that the other day i wouldnt have been found.... (some know what im talking about)