That really sucks man! nobody gives a shit sounds like. that really helps you when your depressed doesn't it. people just don't get it. i'm sorry about what's happening to you. :(

:< What a bunch of idiots. I hope some sleep finds you tonight.

It seems to me unless you're manic and/or seriously threatening suicide nobody takes you serious. I expected my pdoc to put me i/p recently due to suicidal thoughts but they weren't serious enough so I was sent home with a different a/d.

i know how u feel... i still havent been able to sleep no matter what i try to do i feelfor ya i really do hun

My mottoes for survival After BP like BC but goes on and on.

I DONT CARE SO WORLD BEWARE

NO FEAR NO LIMITS NO BLAME NO SHAME NO GUILT

SEIZE THE DAY

YOU DROP DEAD TODAY I'LL DROP DEAD TOMORROW

EVERYONE LIVES BEYOND THEIR MEANS GREAT PEOPLE LIVE BEYOND OTHER PEOPLES

I CARE FOR NOBODY NO NOT I AS NOBODY CARES FOR ME

POEM

I'm a lean dog a keen dog a wild dog and lone.
A rough dog, a tough dog hunting on my own,
A bad dog a mad dog teasing silly sheep,
I love to sit and bay the moon and keep fat souls from sleep,
I'll never be a lap dog licking dirty feet,
A sleek dog a meek dog cringing for my meat,
Not for me the fireside the well filled plate,
But shut door and sharp stone and cuff and kick and hate,
My is still the lone way the hard way the best,
Wild wind and wide stars and the hunger of the quest,

Not mine but appropriate.

Spent 50 years trying to please others and doing the right thing putting others first. Paid bills cut grass said excuse me. I got screwed robbed betrayed and broken. So now I am true to me and the hell with everyone.

j,

Remember that someone cares about you :D

*dangles a string with a faceted crystal ball on the end in front of your eyes. Gently rocking the crystal back and forth... left then right.. right then left while chanting "sleep, sleep, you will sleeeeep".

Take Care Buddy

sometimes it does suck being BP....

if you really need the help go back to the hospital and tell them you want to hurt yourself, cry alot, do what it takes to get in...

sounds alot like lying don't it...

unfortunately, the system sucks.... the govt idea of "reform" is to privatize mental health and put the rest in jail

I hate cheating the system, but sometimes yo gotta do what you gotta do, I know me, when i am down I will just give up instead of doing what needs to be done

you're in Michigan too?

CMH sucks. I admit it. I had to change case workers because my case worker could never even get me my meds at the right time.

I like my CW now... but CMH is overburdened and underfunded.

it is bullshit that they wouldn't hospitalize you.

if you are there, saying "I need to be hospitalized," there is no reason for you to be turned away.

Thank you everyone. I am feeling alittle better, but still can't sleep. I just took my meds and think I may try again to sleep. I have a halloween party to go to tonight and am going to go and try to have a good time. Hope it works.

good luck jstreet I feel for you. It's happened to me. Unless you say the majic word "suicide" they ignore you. Hang in there we will support you.

js, been there too. Sat on a hallway floor for hours on end and finally someone talked to me about 12 or more hrs. later. By that time, I wanted nothing more than to get the h*ll out of there.
I wonder if that was their plan all day? Keep me waiting so long I would beg to be let go?
That was 3 months ago and I still have to wait another 4 months to see a pdoc for the first time! It's def not just Michigan.
Hope ya feel better, I'm really down today too...so you're not alone, not that it helps much when you're depressed.
Hugs, B

Been there done that and if I can next time I will tell them I'm suicidaleven if I'm not. Trouble is when I'm severely depressed like that I'm not my best advocate and usually am alone when I try to get help.