when i was in the airport on saturday, i found myself wishing that someone would pull out a gun and just shoot me and then it would all be over. when i was driving home from wolfgang's on tuesday there was a spot on the road where it looked like i could drive straight into the river but i spotted the crash barrier, i would have only damaged my car. does anyone else get these urges? depression is very strong at the moment and i came back into my house with such a sigh of relief, i don't know what i was thinking, leaving it in the first place. I have to leave again tomorrow to go to my daughter's musical (it got a great review, hers was the only name mentioned!) and i am dreading it. I don't need to be told I have my children to think of, i am very aware of that. i know this is an awful thing but i have nobody else to talk to about it. The medications have caused weight gain during the last year and a half, i get very little sleep, fibro is extremely painful (even more since the car accident eight weeks ago), my self esteem is below the floor boards. i really don't know what to do. the local hospital is not an option the won't take me because i see a private pdoc so the one in the hospital for my area wont have anything to do with me and wont allow me access to any of the local services.
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