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Want to self isolate....HELP

deleted_user
deleted_user
I dont think its the holidays makeing me want to isolate.

I already had thanksgiving with my family like 2 weekends ago. I am feeling over whelmed a bit . I am going to make a very small thanksgiving dinner which for me I still dont manage small... to take over to my mother in laws. Im not particularly looking forward to going over there its never a time of calm. She is Bipolar and extreamly over whelming to me, (I hope I dont make people feel like that about me).


But even that isnt whats formost on my mind. I feel like shutting down. I did get my lamictal raised on friday and I added atavan on friday as well. I have my xanax for emergancies (thank god). Befor I took a nap today I was wanting to avoid going out to the stores and stuff. I took a nap and woke to find my self irritable and truely wanting to isolate from my family the public everything. If we dont go to the store today I cant get the stuff to cook dinner with for tomoorow (I have to cook it early). I dont want to cook dinner, I dont want to go to the store, I dont want to talk to anyone, (typing here is some how different), I dont want to be touched... I wouldnt say I am anxious but those sure are signs of it. I wouldnt say Im depressed but again those are signs....

Help!!!! How do I pull out of this... I need to badly. I did crash the last two times my husband went to drill and he went this weekend. Maybe Im crashing again but it makes no sence because hes home I should be relieved and want to be around people.
Shelly4
Shelly4
Honey, call your pdoc right away. If you are feeling this badly it could be from the increase in your meds. This drug did the same to me last year and I wrote of it in my journal. It was not a good thing. Please dont hesitate.....Call you pdoc now.
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i get this way around the holidays. wish i had good advice for you. i just volunteered to work, so i wouldn't have to deal with it.
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I think this being alone shit is just a bipolar trait. I get into it also. You know to exist in society we have to commune with others. So be a hermit for awhile and realize you've got to function then join society for a time.
deleted_user
deleted_user
it totally is ...but sometimes time alone is really restorative.
deleted_user
deleted_user
we dont really have the money to go out to dinner, his mom has little money and we have a turkey. The other things Im gonna make dont cost much. Shelly which med are you refering to as causing this...


This is not a new thing for me to get this way but ya it is overbearing. My pdoc isnt in the office up here except for on fridays and the office is closed for the holidays on friday this week. My case worker is out of the office maybe will be in tomorrow. My daughters birthday party is on sunday, so I have that stressor. I just wanna go run and hide
beckyp
beckyp
When I start to feel overwhelmed and want to isolate but can't(and shouldn't) I write lists of the things I have to do and just start doing things one at a time . Ck them off as you do them. Maybe this will help if you have a plan.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hmm part of it mayb e because of a comment my mother in law said slightly to me and then more so to my husband. I mentioned the food I was cooking and bringing so she didnt have to do anything. I said I was going to make greenbean cassarolle and she said that 'her' family never had that and hinted that she didnt think my husband would like it much less her... but she didnt SAY it to me. Well I said hmmm odd cause I make it every year and sometimes inbetween and john likes it.... then she made a comment to my husband about not being to sure about it and I think it really hurt my feelings. WHy should I be going out of my way to cook a dinner that maynot be appriciated the way I think it should be.

hell I dont know.... and yes now I feel like my dinner is going to be judged and that anything she says about not liking something is going to make me feel really bad. (thats my bpd having its say about the holidays)
deleted_user
deleted_user
If you simply can't go shopping can you send hubby, after all it's for his mom. It took me 4 hours to go to the store today and I did it. No problems just try not to make eye contact as much as possible. You can do it.Maybe you hubby and kids go together:)
deleted_user
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ya Im not particualeryly looking forward to the store thats for sure. I kinda want to be irresponcible and go get a rat friend ... but that means a drive to the city and we have to do that enough this week... it would be a careless thing.

I do hate the store thankfully its not to bad as its a small town but there are still stupid people everywhere


Gonna go brave the store
deleted_user
deleted_user
I do the same thing. Block myself off from the world. I was supposed to have gone to the grocery store yesterday and today and have yet to make it there. This will pass. You will join in with life before you know it.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It sounds as though you are rapid cycling which doesn't help you much just to know it, you need to get some relief from it. Even though you say it's not the holidays our subconscious runs really deep and perhaps you are having some reaction to that not that I'm saying you shouldn't get help. Don't be miserable over the holidays, call your pdoc before he/she takes off for TG or speak to whoever is on call. I hope you feel better soon.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I get the same way sometimes. I allow my self one day, schedule permitting, to hide (as I say) from the world. After that I am not allowed to do it any longer. It seems to work for me. Your schedule doesn't seem to allow right now, but I like the restaraunt meal idea. SRC
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