Here's the thing with me. I liked myself so much more before I was diagnosed. Not because I was manic but because I was far more uninhibited and candid way before my mania. It's almost been two years now. I was OH so skinier back then. I had a buttload of friends, and I went out way more. sure I was usually daydreaming and would interject conversations with out-of-nowhere comments, but that was one my quirks. My doctors say they pulled me out of my own little world and back in to the real one. The reason ofcourse is that it's healthier- SAFER that way. But really? How many of you don't wish you can go back to the way things were before you went nuts? Just a little out of touch with reality but enough so that you still blended in with the rest of the population? I admit, I was insane long before I went manic, but what's wrong with that? Really, now.
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