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Violent Thoughts

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When people do or say things annoy me, I have these thoughts of...throwing things at them, or smacking them, or kicking them in the knee caps! I'd never really do it, but just someone standing beside my desk irritates me to the point of wanting to throw my stapler at them! The old lady in the pdoc office the other day, going on an on about her credit card and receipt and she should've brought a briefcase, and blah blah blah....I literally had to close my ears and rub them so the thught of cussing her out would go away. Is this normal? I told the pdoc when he saw me. I told him that the crazy woman behind me that kept tapping her foot made me want to shake her and tell her to stop. He said I'm a very angry woman and "that's why I'm on Lithium" now. Any suggestions? Am I really this unstable and crazy or is it really a part of the depression that can be controlled with all of these new medications that I'm on now?
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It can get worse.It can be bloody and theatrical.It's always got a sense of the theatrical...which sort of made me feel a little better.It meant I wasn't about to really kill everyone I see.
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I have no idea if you are an "angry woman" or not but my pdoc put me on Trileptal because it is good mood stabilizer especially for those people who have irritable, angry type manias or manic out bursts. I'm off of it now because of the side effect of blurry vision when I was in the therapeutic range. We're switching me to Lamictal instead.
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trileptal/tegretol is great for people prone to mania, full stop, also!

yeah..me too. (ze violent thoughts) ..abilify helps with extreme (self directed) ones

it can get worse. Take your meds.
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HAHAHAHA... wow can i ever be like that also... you have taken the words right out of me women... I am so like that sometimes.. it just builds up and builds up and u can feel urself getting hotter and hotter.. and like something big is sitting on you and u need to push it off but watch out when you do... thats the time when we have more power then we really knew we had. I know with me when i get annoyed to the point of BLAH... i can black out.. but iv been pretty good at controlling it. Last time i had a big blast out i took a baseball bat to my husbands car.. yeah that was a story.. lol..
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I was diagnosed as BP II so I didn't think I really had any mania. I have never had any hallucinations or anything like that...I'm thought to be the opposite of manic. Is the anger what "my manic" is...?????
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id say yes a part would be... but not really because when your full manic u just dont care... someone can come to my face and be like ur dumb and ill be like have a nice day and smile at them lol.. but thats when im manic.. i mean u can tell me whatever or do whatever to me and its all good.. lol. but then with the anger i guess would be kinda of manic because of the big amount of energy that takes over...
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Mania can definitely be expressed in the form of rage and irritability. It's often the case in mixed episodes such I tend to get. No. 1 I have never observed you so I don't know. No. 2 Only your pdoc really knows for sure. IMO.
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right now, since yesterday afternoon, i been really agitated. i don't vision me hurting anyone else tho, but i have yelled and then apologized to my family. just like in the post about sound sensitivity, i feel way more sound sensitive too. i really like to be in tune to what i need when i feel like this. it's hard to figure it out, but i did close my self up in my bedroom and took a time out. it has helped some. writing on here has helped some too.


i think meds help, but they are only a tool. the rest is up to us, and how we choose to respond to a situation.
polarbare
polarbare
I have my ipod with me for such times as this... people see I am not available to listen to them or I don't have to hear others in the waiting room.. its great on the bus, airport, airplane, any place there are people... even people without bipolar can react in anger towards others but its how we cope that's important.. and yes mania can manifest in anger or irritability... I also remove myself from people and go for a ride in my car or walk... grab a latte and any strong emotions I have I vent in my car and it keeps life with my family or friends less emotional... ((hugs)) polar
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I do the same thing Polarbare, the ipod has saved my butt more times that I can count. Espescially waiting for a bus- ugh that's the worst.

Usually when that stuff is bothering me it's because I'm manic or stressed out. It just sets me on edge. I'm a dysphoric manic tho so it usually just means I need a med tweak.
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