I read in one of my books about alcoholism that once the body establishes a certain metabolic pathway for processing toxic substances it never goes away and makes a person highly suceptible to any type of addictive substance.

AAA HAA that explains it, I still want to bundle Seb into the car and nip up the deli and grab a packet, trouble is my hubby said if I start smoking again I have to sell my horses :(( I hate the word CONTROL sometimes. :((

I know what you mean Justrosie. I'm on Day 10 of quitting and it's really getting on my nerves. How long does one have to fight the cravings?
I wont' buy a pack if you don't buy a pack! I'm actuallly chewing on straws, it helps!

LOL way to go Dobie welldone 10 days. I gave in it's been 18mths for me and I jsut fancied a fag, I get so stressed when my hubby stays back and has a few beers or a few jacks, and Im stuck at home, he is a social being and I suffer with social activities especcially when i am down. I spose I want my own party. Drinking only depresses me more coz I never drink :(( Thankyou for your concern:))

To me, drinking is a BIG trigger for smoking.
So is talking on the phone!
And driving!
I have to watch out for those areas of my life.
Can you join him and NOT drink? Like have a seltzer & bitters instead? Just to be out w/him, out of the house? That's what I started drinking when I quit alcohol. It tastes like a drink!
So..DON'T DO IT! If you slipped, you slipped. We alll do w/addictions. I kept slipping for 2 years before I finally stopped drinking for good.

OHH, my Gosh,,thats exactly me...I would do really good, quit for a few weeks or maybe a few months then some trigger, I would actually get some high going to the store and buying cigerettes and alcohol, then i would get home and feel bad Again for giving in, but sooo happy and could not wait to get on my porch and sit,,drink and smoke,I recently just quit again, its been about almost 2 months! I have been going to the gym and all the triggers before,,i do NOT do,,,I would flip out,,and then the cycle would happen,,it is a form of control and comfort for me, like my best friend,,but then i hate myself after, and doing it Again! I hope u know your not alone, when i read your post i felt comfort,,but my advice,,do not drink,,,not for a long, long, long, while,,,,And it is self destructing,,,its a comfort zone to self destruct..its like a high,,its crazy,,but thats what i feel,,,thats why i need to go to the doctor,,before it happens again,,,everything seems to be getting worse,,,I hope that helped ,,,some...Marisa

Hey there
I actually quit smoking before I quit drinking, and I used to use drinking to cushion me so I wouldn't smoke. I'd stand there with a bunch of people smoking and the smoke would waft all over me, smells so good lol...second hand smoke can be a high too so I have to watch that. But I'd be standing there with my drink in my hand and be totally ok with not smoking...well now that i've given up drinking too, I have to watch going to parties with a lot of that going on...people, places and things, etc. Right now I have a chocolate and sugar addiction. I love it. I go to work and just HAVE to have a little something to tide me over. Doesn't matter what, just something sweet. Chocolate is preferable though. You are right, Morgaine, we are always susceptible to addictive substances, no matter how long we've been away from alcohol or whatever. I figure tho...better to eat chocolate than drink or smoke. Going to any lengths and all that ya know?

Thankyou for your support we all get self destructive at times and feel guilty for our vices. I spose it is just part of being bipolar and having to go to the extremes all the time. Your support is compforting thanks again :))

That's true.I always have the temptation cos my mates go round the back of the pub to skin up and share.Leaving me on my own for a wee while.
I skin up for them but don't smoke except for the odd toke.
I get all giggly so quick and they love it.It's their entertainment I think.

LOL I wish I got all giggly I just withdraw into my own special world and giggle on the inside. I could just see you hiding behind the pub skining up Hee hee XX

Well, I had my times in the illness.That " Fuck It " mood.So pissed off at the inability to communicate what we go through.
I always regretted it after.
I smoke cigarettes. About three a day.Three hundred when attempting to socialise.

It's also about beating on ourselves.Y'know, when you think that you are SO boring now.
That's not true though.