I'm sitting here reading everyones posts and trying to watch TV so I will maybe stop thinking. So many thoughts racing in my mind. Sometimes when this is happening I bang my head against the wall or hit something, cut myself, blah, blah... Today I have this overwhelming urge to burn myself, just stick my hand on the stove until it hurts. I know it sounds crazy but, it stops my mind and all I'm doing now is sitting here on my couch rocking back and forth. Frozen, not getting up, so I won't go near the stove. Trying just to read and watch TV. Sorry I'm just typing on and on. I am just waitng for this feeling to pass. Just need it to pass. Had a good week and really thought I was ok and the weekend is here and I will be with my family and friends and that's what I look forward to and I'm just having a hard time.
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