I have been doing very well and my life has really come together. It has been a joint effort to wellness,Mom being the biggest cheerleader and my confidant. She researched bipolar and had empathy for the plight of the mentally ill and homeless created by the gaps in the system. I even went to individual therapy and groups,saw a psychiatrist went on medication and am on the right path.Haven't been arrested for 2 years and that certainly is nice. Here comes the flip.................mom had a massive stroke and is very limited lots of paralysys so my brother is offering help if they move to his area. He has plenty of money and can afford to buy a place for them flat out. I wish he would work to keep them in the area they love. Which would not leave me in a vacuum. I am feeling disconnected from all of these decisions and I think it's because I am bipolar. I am feeling selfish but I don't want to go back to the old me and neither would anyone else. Disconnected.......dejected.........alienated ..............kicked to the curb like yesterdays garbage.
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