sweetie, when you figure it out, please let ME know. I go through this alot and I just don't know what to say except I know how you feel.

I guess it's like that old phrase "walking a mile in another's shoes" or something like that. How can they understand what they've never experienced? IT is frustrating.

really i dont wish this illness on anybody but sometimes i think even if they had it for a day just to see what i have to deal with all the time , my family think now im back on meds that the bp will just go away , boy do i wish it worked like that !!!

I spoke with my mom yesterday and she's still under the impression that there's some way I can "snap out of" whatever mood I'm in lol. Too funny but I don't understand her either so we're even :).

frustrating GOD DAMM FUCKIN ANNOYIN n the kids r cryin aaaaaaaagrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

This problem is prevelant with all mental illnesses. People get creeped out or just plain never speak to you again. It's especially hard when our family doesn't understand. I just tell them I'm having a bad day and they back off.
peace, t

i feel that today and for the past 2 years. I need a manic phase. I feel crazy and helpless in just the same way. With the kids thing and house thing. I can't even keep a job for the past 3 years. So sorry, I wish there was a solution.

i just seen a dad hug his daughter on tv n started cryin big sobs , my daughter starts shouting mum your cryin , get through here(she's in the bath as i really have to get her to school tomo ) syhe really shouldnt have to deal with this , i cant tell her why im cryin

I wish I had sage advice. I think venting and reaching out here is a good thing. I'm lucky I have a couple people, who try to understand, that I can call. My mom is someone I avoid when I'm down.

Rjanie: I couldn't function w/o my meds. When I was younger, I was much like you. I cried, screamed, felt horrible, raised 2 kids, went to school, worked....some of those things were when I was depressed, some when manic. It was difficult and I turned to my family for help and got the same bullshit answers you did.
You sound angry, frustrated, on edge. I don't know if you're on meds or need to change meds or tweak your meds.
Of course meds aren't the whole story. After years of therapy and meds, I began to "get it" and function better. Of course, too, a lot of this is just age.
If your family is not being supportive, go to a shrink, church, school, counselor, the grocery store...I don't care where but get some support and help but God bless your little heart, you're in huge need of it.
Whatever you do, please don't take it out on the kids...they're being kids and will blame themselves if you hurt them. Next time they're crying, go hug them; love them, laugh with them, color or wash dishes with them...just be with them.
And next time Mum says, "What can I do for you?" tell her, "You can hug me to start with".

thank you anna , i am on med a hell of a lot of meds , n the kids i dont take it out on , if i cant do anything else i do tend to them , they have both gone to bed like little angels , i called my dad there n begged him to put me in somewhere, but he doesnt have a clue what im talkin bout or why im cryin down the fone to him , i offered to send him more info on this stupid illness but he says he doesnt need it , he has a rough idea bout this illness, he' says i have to pull it together tonight cause its not good for the kids to see me like this , and he'll try see me tomorrow , ive never asked him for anything let alone beg him but as usual its his preciious businesses that come first so only if nothin goes wrong with them will i see him tomo maybe i should just sigh myself in n send him the bill