need to cut. pdoc is out of the country. doc on call does not speak english very well and is the one who the last time told me to 'eat something sweet and go to sleep' so am not calling him again. no back up here. i don't know if i can keep myself distracted. i have tried ice, a bath, music, reading, etc. and have run out of ideas and platitudes...i just took 1mg of xanax. hopefully it will kick in soon.
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