I stand here on the shore

The night is so dark but i can see

looking on the sand i see evidence of Death all around

My lil mistress Depression calls me to her

encouraging my steps

I walk into the freezing water and just let myself drift

I can feel the current start to take me

but I no longer care

I drift further out

and my lil Mistress whispers to me

you've given up? thats no fun!

I guess it's Big Sis' turn now!

I can feel her calling me

telling me just to drift to her it will be okay

soon it will be over and the cold and pain will end

it sounds so good............

and then I hear it

a voice vaguely remembered

lost in childhood

sounding of laughter

without mockery

without despair

my old friend happiness stands upon the shore

brilliant blue eyes so warm and full of love

she beckons me

I start to fight to struggle against the currnet

It is a hard struggle

but Im not alone

she calls me telling she can be found but I must win this battle first

I reach the shore and she has withdrawn

I can still hear her

but I've lost sight

but now I know she is still there

I walk along the shore

both voices calling to me

one says to fight and stay on the land

the other demands her just due

and demands I return to Her

Where shall I turn???????