I don't know if it's my inner teenager or inner toddler, but there is this angry resistance inside of me that causes me not to be able to think straight!!! I have these deep feelings of unhappiness and dissatisfaction that started with remembering my feelings from my childhood 10 days ago when my aunt visited my mom and I. I've been depression free since this same time last year and I'm afraid I will fall into another depression this year again!
I see myself thinking that "I don't want to" for every suggestion I come up with in regards to convincing myself to exercise, which is something I do regularly, except the last few days! The only thing that happened was that last week I took a class at the gym which caused some neck and back pain so I had to take a few days off! I went after that, but I don't seem to want to go again!
It also seems like my inner toddler wants to mope, complain, and cry!
I need to be the adult here, but I'm having a hard time being a grown up with this inner dialogue.
I don't even know what I hope to accomplish by posting this! Maybe some clarity as to what I CAN do! or should I say "I'm WILLING to do". I know the way of forcing myself usually results in me rebelling even more! or afterwards thinking that "big deal, you haven't accomplished anything"!
I need an attitude adjustment badly! I hope I'm not falling into a depression, because it feels like it! The lack of hope that I can pull myself out of this funk is also discouraging.
Only if I could change my own opinion of myself right now, that would be great!
Because I disagreed with my veterinarian's best practices, I am leaving this clinic and here's part with the problem.In my state, and I think I may have brought this up earlier in another thread, my veterinarian can access all my prescription drugs without my permission and knowledge as it's part of the Opiod Monitoring in my state. Some states have adopted this law, my state is one of them. I...
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