I am not usually like this but I have been this way for two weeks now. I am finding it so hard to keep from doing stupid things... although most times I can stop myself, well except for a few things that afterwards make me think oh my god I am nuts. I have only been just diagnosed with bipolar and they have only just started me on lithium. I have only taken two dosages so far so I am not sure when it should start working. I have to have bloods taken on monday to see what the toxicity is like and also if its absorbing into my system, cos with some people it doesn't. What do you do when all you want to do is cut yourself and laugh at the blood dripping out, or run in front of cars and laugh at them? I keep wanting to and sometimes do without any control, sometimes I can control myself and I am ok.... but how do you stop yourself from going completely nuts like me?! Help me someone! I'm nuttier than a peanut butter cookie!