I am having a very bad day...this is an understatement. Our sermon today was on forgiveness. I really wished that I could surrender all the hate and hurt that people have done to me. Our pastor was saying that it is the only way to release the demons that torture us. I am trapped in a loveless marriage where my DH plays twisted mind games that are a huge trigger to my episodes. No surprise that today would be another one of those days. It is gorgeous outside and all I would like is to enjoy my kids playing and being kids, but after the mind games this am...I am thrown deep into depression and I will be lucky if I can get my head on straight before tomorrow. I have a job interview tomorrow and I really need a job, but I can't "sell" myself if I am like this. No one will believe in me. No one does believe in me.
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