I am having an issue with everything today. I should start out by saying I have had BP2 for many years now. I have a hard time dealing with that. Now I have been diagnosed with Systemic Lupus and many of my bad days I find can be tracked back to that condition or the combination with BP. I also have a young son who has autism and is sometimes alot to handle. Inbetween everything I am burnt out and feel like I cannot take anymore. I can feel myself slipping into a deep depression again because I am isolating myself from everyone and not going anywhere again. I have been thinking about not wanting to be around anymore but I know thats the easy way out. If I get sicker I am not sure what I will do. I see my BP Doc tomarrow I guess I will talk to him about some of this although half the time I think it all goes in one ear and out the other. Anyway Thx for letting me vent some.
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