Today I had bad day since I started to take my medication that was prescribe to me. However I did noticed an improvement since i have been taking the medication to help stablize my mood swings. Before when had bad day, a sudden rage would over take me and I would say hurtful things towards luv ones. But the scary thing about this is that i did not realize what i was doing nor what i saying.. The rage had taken over.. My mental state was in bad shape....I had not way of controlling my rage. .. At times i would become violent .......Luckly , I found a medication that helps control my violent tendenses that use to have for no apparent reason. But the funny thing is, I was able to hide it from the outside world, nobody would suspect me to have any issues. One of reason why i had such a bad day is because I was jesouly i know that for most part it is not a good thing to be jesouly however at times it is natural.. The reason why is because, my brother has friends close by and all of my friends that I do have do not live in close proximity to where I live at times I wish i had friends that live close by so i can hangout . At one time I did have friends close by however, after I had transfer to four year college for my under-graduate and when i can back most of them had move a way .. or lost touch with with them. Hey that is life.. lIfe is all about change, for the good or for the bad. that is life. Oh, I mean do get me wrong I luv having friends from all over, it just sometimes I wish I had friends close by . HOpefully, when i join a support group i will make some friends with in the group .. so i am able to hangout with some of them out side of group thearpy. Oh sorry for venting.. thanks for listening..
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