Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I felt one with everything more and more until I felt like I was everything. I felt like god.
It was awesome for about 5 seconds! Then I realized that if I truly were god, then I was alone with no one to look to for hope. Then it sucked!
Hence, both situations cause the brain to go into overdrive, or hyper-cognition. A supreme being would obviously be more powerful than ours and manic episodes are a scaled down representation of such a state.
Seem plausible?
I read up all I could about bp after that & found something on the net that explained psychosis & the description was just about word for word what he'd told me.
Before I read that I was actually starting to think that maybe he was!
It was fun when we had some religious people knocking on our door at that time though, he pretty much told them he knew it all & could help them, they couldn't leave fast enough!
I never thought I was God in full-blown mania... but I believed I was some kind of Shaman... whose purpose was to heal others. Was very trippy, to say the least. Started to feel worn out by that 'role' (lol)... so I got on the meds and vowed to stay on them forever.
i thought i was carrying jesus in my womb when i was in jail when i was first dx... and then more recently this past summer i thought i was president... it's not a different illness it's bipolar 1 and it sucks