not quite god - but sent back for a purpose??????

I was close enough, I couldn't decide whether I created the universe or if I just helped god do it. These are supposively quite normal symptoms of mania.

I've never thought i was God but i have thought i was dead before and just living a dream...if that makes any sense

welcome to bipolar1... delusional... often godlike feeling... some have hallucinations... full blown mania is a bitch... and ive had these feelings before

Oh yeah. When I was 20 and experimenting with LSD. I used to trip out about the universe, god, consciousness. Visually, I saw intricate patterns in everything and eventually abstract concepts such as life, love, thought, etc. became just highly complex patterns of matter and energy.
I felt one with everything more and more until I felt like I was everything. I felt like god.
It was awesome for about 5 seconds! Then I realized that if I truly were god, then I was alone with no one to look to for hope. Then it sucked!

NEVER>>> thought I was god but.. I suposse sometimes I do not think people on this earth understand me.

thanks for the contributions to this post...the first time I, "Imagined I was God" was in a very scary rubber room in the county jail..I think I was in there for about 9 days....After some time I imagined that I was God and I had foolishly created a stone to lift....aparently I had come to earth from heaven just to be captured by demons and put into a box that even God could escape...Mind you, I 100% believed I was God and this was my fate......I thought I was going to spend the rest of eternity in that box with the weight of the universe on my very shoulders. I had the most dread I had ever had in my whole life.

Oh yeah. Side note to my LSD story. Supposedly LSD causes the brain to be active across it's entire volume as opposed to being only partially active during sobriety. My doc showed me pictures of brains scans of different kinds of disorders and BP brains were the most active- even in regions of the brain that were currently not required for the task at hand.
Hence, both situations cause the brain to go into overdrive, or hyper-cognition. A supreme being would obviously be more powerful than ours and manic episodes are a scaled down representation of such a state.
Seem plausible?

My bp partner scared the crap out of me one night when he said "You may not realise this but I am deeply religious, I'm basically the modern day jesus & I'm here to save the world. I know how it's going to end & I can stop it from happening."

I read up all I could about bp after that & found something on the net that explained psychosis & the description was just about word for word what he'd told me.

Before I read that I was actually starting to think that maybe he was!

It was fun when we had some religious people knocking on our door at that time though, he pretty much told them he knew it all & could help them, they couldn't leave fast enough!

It does sound plausible to me, neuroticanalyzer.

I never thought I was God in full-blown mania... but I believed I was some kind of Shaman... whose purpose was to heal others. Was very trippy, to say the least. Started to feel worn out by that 'role' (lol)... so I got on the meds and vowed to stay on them forever.

the chemicals in our brains are effected just like the chemicals in any drug would effect us... ive compared being manic to being drunk, blacked out and on drugs...

i thought i was carrying jesus in my womb when i was in jail when i was first dx... and then more recently this past summer i thought i was president... it's not a different illness it's bipolar 1 and it sucks

i can liken episodes that are undoubtedly LSD influence, only god banished me..tripped on ma own in a field for 9 months..he didnt wanna know..

yes, had elaborate delusions including that I had supernatural powers, I also thought other ppl I knew had special powers. It freaks you out when you realise how much your mind betrayed you...it did me.

here here! but i accept it..

Does it still happen a lot on meds, for you?