All this talk of suicide makes me wonder...is it the moon, the tide, time of year, or what? It seems like there are way too many people who are suicidal. It is really bumming me out. I know you guys can't help it, God I do because I've been there. It's just exhausting, and as much as I want to go above and beyond, I get tired and I can't every time one of us has this problem. I do pray all the time for everyone in this community, and I do mean it. I hope all of you who are down will realize how much you mean to us, to the world, and to yourselves. I really don't think any of us want to die. We just want the pain to go away. And we see death as the only way to make that happen. But that's not true. The pain will subside, but once you make that decision for suicide, that is permanent. Then there is no hope. At least right now we are all still trying, so there is hope still for us. Anyway, just wanted to let you all know that I care and I apologize for not being there like I wish I could be. I myself have issues and pain to deal with too, and so sometimes I can't be there for my buddies like I want to be. And that bothers me probably more than it should. Anyway, just wanted to let you know.
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