I know that I am down to the last step. And I know that I am not here to be talked down because, it is not a matter of living or dieing, but instead that I know that I am alone because everyting that I have known in my life is gone because I thougt that people were alove that were not in fact real.

One step that I have brought myself to. My skin gurts I have brought myswelf to prepare. My shoulder hurts and I want to know if this is a dream or if I have really lsot everyone that I thought were real.

I am sorry that you have to read this, but I dont know other than if I am wrong. I want to make sure that people understand why I am where I am. that my whole life of living is because of them,.. and without them I am nothing.

I am sorry, but wirthout you. Without knowing that you are my fmaily I am noting anyways. I think that I will call into work because I do not want them to rely on me being there. I am not doing this for attention, I dont want to do it. I want to be with the peple that I love. But they dont exist. I am sorry fro postiong this. I wish I would t5hink someone wuld call. Maybe I should call into work, 0 now so that they are not calling my house and being under staffed. I would lke to make sure that they are able to handle the needs of bussiness as rthey arive.