I've been in my own worm hole for over a year now, and I'm beyond fearing my medical condition vs. mental health meds. I just can't live my life day after day with breathing tears.
Weird how when I wrote out last night how I felt, and how angry I am and sick and tired of a no purpose life...today I began to have little, what I call God Whispers...no offense to those who have different Higher Powers.
Today I decided to do one thing that I've not been doing on a consistant basic cause I don't have to...get dressed...at this point I'm not even baby stepping, Im crawling....and hoping to find some light. I see my therapist on Wed and at the end of the month my med aprn and hoping for ? to jump start me...hoping the basic of getting dressed every day will help.
For the past few days, my SI has been getting out of hand. Normally I can manage the damage that Suicidal Ideation causes but recently I just don't have any energy to prevent the damage. Any suggestions?
This is the tree a friend sent me after mine was stolen from my storage place that i am SOO grateful to! I love the tree! Its a 4 foot tree and just right for my small apartment! I think it looks beautiful, my friend Lisa helped me decorate it, my pain would not let me do it all. I am so grateful for so much right now! For my tree, the decorations my parents helped me get, (found out a case of...