Here I am, As I keep thinking about not thinking. As I approach the second anniversary of my second husband's suicide. I was there...so you know it wasn't pretty. And I remember ppl kill themselves or ppl..not the gun. I think I may have gotten thru this a little better and bam..here comes VA Tech. I am not saying what happened to me was worse or better...just did not need the trigger. And the irony? my husband used a 9 mil and a 22 semi...lovely. My children are telling me I am having a mood change...grumpy is the agreed word. I want to get thru the next 7 days in relative peace. The aniversary date is april 25th. I started taking an antianxiety pill, but think it could be a little stronger. How do I feel? not manic and not depressed...you know...the lala land...why am I writing? cause I guess sometimes I come across here as helpful, hopeful and somewhat cheery...but not today.
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...