First I want to say thankyou from the bottom of my heart. Seriously it means the world to me especially being quarantined like I am. I am very very lonely and depressed it is probably a good thing I don't have any sharp objects around here. To be honest being suicidal is not a good thing anytime but right now it's awful. Well as far as my physical symptoms I am about the same my lungs sound like I smoked a cartoon of cigarettes even though I don't smoke. My body aches severely still and my fever is still runs 101-103. I will tell ya it is the worst flu I have ever had. I was talking to my Dr on the phone and he said I should feel better on Monday and told me to hang on and keep the faith. The whole situation just sucks. I miss my babies and everything that is near and dear to me. I'm having lots of dreams about my best friend that died Heidi not sure if it is my high fever but it seems so real. I could go on and on. Oh as for the planquinal the malaria drug that is supposed to help I am very familiar with the drug because it is a Med that is used for lupus. My friend called crying because she can't get her med refilled because it is on back order. Just another thing that just gets me so sad. I know I just have never wanted to die so bad before. I statutes to write letters to my friends but than I remembered how hard my friend Heidi fought to stay alive and I'm just ashamed of it all. I know how can I want to die when I have year old twins...my thinking and very easy to rationalize is they would be better off with someone else and being so young I don't think they would remember me. I shouldn't be writing this but it just goes on in my head. I just pray that the world will get better and it makes my so sad that the world is the way it is. Scary and so sad ..well just writing this much tired me out..thanks again from the bottom of my heart Namaste Pema
Any one heard from S? She hasn't been on in a while which isn't like her. I'm very worried. Anyone please let me know if u know why she isn't here or if she's ok. I'm hoping ur ok S.
So, I am the oldest child of my mothers three children but fourth oldest of my dad's 12 children. Growing up I watched my mother date lots of guys, many if not all of which she brought home way too ealry in my opnion. She allowed them to discipline us and she allowed them to walk all over her. For a period of about 6 months to a year I remeber she had met a guy and would leave me an, 8th or 9th...