Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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This may be long-winded, but I really need some perspective. I was on disability for ten years for my BP, then I went back to work for three solid years(never was late or called in sick).
Recently I moved and sought a job in my field. The first interview I went on I definitely would have had the job because I was more than qualified. Problem is I started yelling at the guy for like five minutes(the reason is unimportant) and walked out.
The second interview at a different place I was hired. After a day and a half I started yelling at the manager for like five minutes in front of everyone and I quit/was fired.
Now I'm afraid to go anywhere. I'm so irritable and I really believe when I'm yelling at someone that they deserve it. Problem is I seem to yell at everyone. What is wrong with me? I'm thinking of going back on disability cause no one is going to put up with my Sh%$t!
Any advice?
Recently I moved and sought a job in my field. The first interview I went on I definitely would have had the job because I was more than qualified. Problem is I started yelling at the guy for like five minutes(the reason is unimportant) and walked out.
The second interview at a different place I was hired. After a day and a half I started yelling at the manager for like five minutes in front of everyone and I quit/was fired.
Now I'm afraid to go anywhere. I'm so irritable and I really believe when I'm yelling at someone that they deserve it. Problem is I seem to yell at everyone. What is wrong with me? I'm thinking of going back on disability cause no one is going to put up with my Sh%$t!
Any advice?
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Nothing is wrong with you for yelling, because then there would be something wrong with me!
You are upset and scared about what?(opinion)
You moved to a different state and started a job after 10 years. You are also very brave!!!
Have you found a dr., a counselor, whatever you do for sanity?
It was a mountain climb to start a new job!
Where is your support?
Why did you leave NY?
I am brand new and do not know you. I hope something I said helps. Crazy in AZ
I agree it is probable that there are underlying anger issues that must be dealt
with perhaps with a Psychologist. But,
perhaps, discussing this with your Psychiatrist is needed, as this could
merely be a symptom of BP, and a sign that your meds are not at a therapeutic
level.
My Dr here doesn't know me, I've seen him once. I don't have a therapist.
I thought I may be short-fused because of hypomania because my thoughts are very racy and I can't stay focused on anything. When I talk, my thoughts are way faster than my mouth can talk.
But maybe I'm just an angry person.
I'm confused. Maybe I'm not BP, just wacko.
Maybe I shouldn't be on any meds.
And as far as being on top of the world one second and suicidal the next...I do that on a daily basis...well maybe not daily...but it can happen in a second...but my dogs always save me...when I met my husband he had a pistol..and I told him...no guns in the house...but he had this whole 2nd amendment thing goin. anyway so I kearned how to shoot it...but I am pretty sure he took the bullets out to be sure I don't do anything stupid...but there are days I am hysterical and have it in my lap...and then one of the dogs comes in...and its usually the deaf one we rescued...and I think who is going to take care of them? so I put it away and hug the dog and cry some more...I guess guys don't cry...but I get angry and yell too..esp in a work situation...I don't like to be criticized..I will either yell or cry...neither response being appropriate.
But I have more stuff going on too....the racing thoughts, nightmares and more...fun stuff
Maybe I should try anger management...sounds like a good idea